Today going to ite dover open house with the rest of the mentoring team. I'm still not prepared yet. Still haven't bath..haha.. late as usual bah. Actually i dun feel like going but yana and jo forced me to. yEAH! U read it correctly, FORCED! haha.. just joking lar. I've got lotsa stuffs which i haven start and need to be complete by tonight. Haiz.. Masliana..pls change yr attitude.. u lazy bum.. How to graduate like dat? I dunno lar.. Dun feel like doing anything at all. I hope i can get away from those pple who r not studying at the moment. Maybe, being wif these pple for so long, makes me lazy coz they r not studying while i'm studying. I shouldn't go out wif them when they ask me out. Yes! I think i should do dat! Dun go out wif them. Who am i kiddin? Myself? haiz.. watever.. toking crap here..

25th Feb: Wat did i do? orh.. Was shocked dat i had to attend the same meeting as d 4 guys. I was even laughing at them when i saw the sms on mk's phone. Sekali, i oso received d sms on d same day as them, 24th feb. Sianz..nak tak nak..turun jugak. Met mk at amk but as usual i'm late. Anyway, we reached at 1215 when we were supposed to reach at 12noon. Boss was oredi there. Saw me and mk walkin together.. i think he look at us differently then. Was i over-reacting? Y shouldn't i rite..when he kept emphasising not to have relationships between volunteers and oso not to go out alone wif guys or alone wif a guy. Anyway, didn't bother much lar. We were earlier than d rest. So, me accompany mk buy drinks for boss and the rest. He got backache agn. So stubborn.. told him to see doc. Then, meeting starts when all were there but always interrupted by Elijah's cries. Then, i stayed for another meeting wif tkgs gals, joanne L and kak sharifah regarding mad hair raising day 2. The guys and SK went shopping for MK's shoes. Me went to work after dat. Supposed to help boss clean his office at tanglin hq but scared not enuff time. haha..

26th Feb: Was doing sch work the whole morning and early afternoon. So sianz. Asked the guys out to watch movie. All say no $ except for Shuan. So, we went to watch Cold Mountain at Causeway Pt. Haha..he has to travel all d way to wdlds from Tampines. Ate at Long John Silver first, then watch movie at 7pm. We were rushin to the toilet b4 and after the movie. So funny. After that, we went outside Civic Ctre and chat. Then, he decided to buy food agn. Haha.. he ate Long John Silver, then popcorn.. then Bk. Coz other shops close le. He eat so much but still dat small size.

27th Feb: Was sick in d morning, so didn't go school. I broke my specs today. Rushed to the specs shop. Decided to buy a new pair of nerdy specs for outside while get a new frame for this old lenses to use at home. Total cost :$150. Considered my degree is very high, i think the price is ok lar. Then met Yana and Kak ina at Causeway pt. Chat and went shopping with them for a while. Then, now at home chatting. Gonna continue work le. Bye...

On 20th and 21st Feb, I went for a Heartcore Camp. The camp was great eventhough the groups are small. It was even more happening when the guys come down. We really entertained the campers during the campfire. Received feedback from the campers that eventhough it was a fake campfire, it was really fun coz of the facilitators. Haha.. i think its bcoz me and guys are so crazy. We dance during some intervals.. Then, we got friendship dance. Funny.. dat mk dunno how to dance, muz teach him. Lucky the rest noe how to dance. He really kena deprived of childhood sia. Then, the guys saboh me.. finale is my dragon dance.. wah kaoz.. cannot tahan seh.. so paiseh. I only did the saturday nite fever dance. Victor very sweet and sporting coz he joined me.
At nite, i went to d hall wif lao da to look for my collage photo coz d guys saw mine when they were re-pasting some of the photos. At last i found it..haha.. Previously, i went wif muhd to look for the photos but cannot find. So many photos leh.
The guys were not supposed to stay, so they went back. Sekali, si Shuan and Victor came back coz no more transport le. So, they overnite wif us. Me, Victor and Shuan didn't sleep all nite talking abt lotsa stuffs especially abt Pangster. haha.. Got 1 time, muhd join in d conver and there's a cockroach which crawled on him. U should have seen Victor's reaction. He is afraid of cockroach and is so disgusted wif it even if it's not on him. The cockroach incident really woke the others up wif the screamings. Me, Vic and Shuan were so tired in d morning. The 3 of us nvr sleep at all mah. I accidentally slept when Raymond was briefing the campers. I left the camp ard 1 hr earlier for mentoring. Kak siti came and she treat me, yana and johan coffeebean. So sweet.. we talk alot.

22nd Feb: Supposed to spend the whole day at home but went out wif sk, tat, vic and gf, mk, shuan, shuhua, yvonne. They met earlier except me and vic & gf. They met yumiko and bro too. So when all of us are there, we took neoprints. So funny.. Then Yumiko and bro left and Shuhua & Yvonne went home. The rest went to eat dinner and go esplanade to take photos. Vic brought his camera. The photos are nice. Slept late..ard 3 plus. Raymond saw me online and told me to go meeting at 10am. Alamak.. tell me at 3am.. Where got time to sleep sia..

23rd feb: Went to d bus for meeting. Joanne laughed at me becoz of raymond asking me to come down. Ruiwen and Eugene oso. Haiz.. can't tahan them. Then hitch a ride from Raymond to Novena Square. Actually, he wants to send me there and take mrt there. Go sch from novena or somerset nearer? Haiz..
After sch, went ktv wif mk, vic, shuan, tat, sk and muhd. They reached earlier. Me and muhd were late. Me wif sch while he was busy at the bus. Had a great time there. Then, went to work. Had a great time there too wif kak wati, new shift manager.

24th Feb: Today! Went to Orchard lib to return books. Then, went to d bus to return tim's laptop. MK accompanied me. We had lunch at Long John Silver @ Cineleisure. From there, we went to vic's house. Me, mk, vic and Shuan played xbox at vic's house. After that, went to Syahrul's mum stall to eat chicken rice. Went to queensway shopping ctr to look for mk's new shoes. All expensive. So decided not to buy. Took mrt back home. Now blogging and chatting lar. Got to do my work oredi. Need to submit the debrief notes on the 25th... consider the time now.. submission date is today! argh.. better do.. or chief nagger will nag and pester me. haha.. ;p

Now listening to Hao Xin Feng Shou song while browsing tru Friendster...

Saw his pictures again.. feel so sad...feel like crying agn..no...Still trying hard to get him out of my head. Oh god! Pls help me lessen this burden.. will ya? He's a nice guy.. too good for me le..I still remember that nad and serene say something like.. maybe i din actually like him.. i like someone else... or maybe someone else like me instead of him... argh.. dun wanna tok abt him but ...

OKies.. some changes with the Ite guys that me and Danial realise:
1. Victor- more crappy, more pervert and lame!
2. Mun Keat- more open, noes how to play ard oredi.. designer mah..lolx
3. Weng Tat- still the same.. as lazy as ever...haha...
4. Shuan- hmm.. Find that he gets irritated easily nowadays. Like easy to flare up oredi.. Maybe becoz of her...

18th Feb: Had an open book test. Ok lar..can still do. Hope i can pass this test coz d previous 1 sure condemned. After that, my fyp group met our evaluator. She's not as wat i expected. Tot she's d strict type but actually she is a nice lecturer. Told our group a lot of important information dat could add up points for our project. Then, we bump into Ricky at Century Square. So, we decided to chill out at the old McDonalds. Talk alot of stuff. Had a great time there.

19th Feb: Went to Sembawang Sun Plaza wif Sk and Tat. Bought the items needed for the camp. Then, ate at Cavana b4 going Canberra. Met Shuhua at Canberra. After slacking at Heartcore Room for a while, the 4 of us went Somerset. I had to go coz i got an appointment with Joanne L but the rest went to take neoprint. Haha.. Eventually, i had to halt my meeting with Joanne L and take photo in the middle of the meeting period. So funny.. u should have seen the photos. Then, continue on d meeting. After our meeting, they got another meeting for CSSP. Decided not to stay and left. Went to meet Yana and her goodfren, Fazilah, at Far East. Had a great time with them. End up, me and Fazilah bought stuffs instead of Yana.

Today: Have to go for a Heartcore Camp. Apparently, i haven't pack my stuff yet. I'm left with 1 more hr b4 rushing out of the house. Shit.. Haven't return tim's laptop.. die ah.. muz return asap but i haven't finish the volunteers' update yet..

Things to do when i get back from camp:
1. Update the class and school for the volunteers
2. Update the list for 14th and 15th Feb
3. Check again whether i have done any blunders..
4. Do d debrief notes b4 Raymond nags or tell chief nagger(Joanne L) to nag at me!
5. Return Tim's laptop on Monday.

okies.. updates:

13th Feb: Met Serene Neo to deliver the flowers. We went to Admiralty first then to Chinatown. Very funny!! We lost our way in Chinatown. Dunno where the recipient is sia.. in the end took a cab and u noe wat? the recipient on leave!! We were like diaoz... haha.. then ate lunch at Banquet, ChinaSquare. Serene was sweet. Gave me a flower. hahaha.. Then, i went to d park as usual...

14th Feb: It's V- Day. Went for early lunch wif yana first b4 going for mentoring. Then i left earlier to meet SK at Canberra. Took a cab to the park. SK tot she lost her phone. Everyone panicked. In the end, its actually at Heartcore Rm in Canberra. Hahaz.. Anyway, she was sweet.. gave me a card- heartshaped with white angelic wings. Then, Jonathan gave a heart balloon bouquet while Benjamin gave me a red rose. Appreciate that the guys gave me this kinda stuff but i find it a nuisance. Coz when i'm in the mrt, pple were looking at me. I'm like "shit.. get me home asap man".. nobody will give me this kinda stuff mah..
There was an incident at the park. A bangladesh worker got punched by a co-worker. Nose bleed badly. Ambulance and police came. Police asked me and Jonathan lotsa qns. Overall, a happy day.

15th Feb: Last day of Ochard of Hope event. Reach the park ard 5 plus. Studying and packing the stuffs at the park. Was a bit unhappy wif some of the guys coz they were chatting downstairs when there r lotsa things needed to be done upstairs. Raymond keep asking me what they r doing. Really felt squashed. But then, everything settled. We had a happy day. Will miss these days at the park.

16th Feb: Sure fail mwsm. Din study much. D paper is so easy yet i dun even noe how to do. Muz do better for the next paper on Wed. Went for final debrief at NYC wif the guys and Raymond. Need to finish up the debrief notes soon. Went for dinner at Monkeys Cafe. Surprisingly, I was wearing a monkey tee. Haha.. and Mk was there.. alive monkey. haha..
Had a funny time there. Elijah was very cute. Feel like pinching his cheeks. Then, went to Borders wif the guys except ben and Muhd. Reading mags.. Then, went home.. the guys keep asking me to bring the big gold coin home..haha...how to roll sia.. As usual, mk and danial keep humouring me wif the armpit thingy.. Gosh..sometimes can't stand them.

17th Feb: Stayed at home all day. Did nothing much. Changed the blogger layout. Nice? got it from blogskins..
okies.. gtg.. ;p

Haha.. got this quiz tru nad's blog..




Which Royalty Are You? Find out! By Nishi.


You are a Queen!
Beautiful, Wise, Strong
Righteous, Commanding, Humble


You are the beautiful and compassionate Queen. You are the epitomy of what every woman should be. You are confident, bold, aggressive, smart, womanly and feminine. You know the right thing to do and do it. You command respect and earn praise. You are moral and loving. In times of trouble, you draw strength from within, and are a source of strength for others.

Left 4 more days to d end of Orchard of Hope event. Will miss the laughter that we had. 1 girl and 8 guys. We r like 1 big happy family. Hope we will still keep in contact.. watch movie, go out together. Never had so much fun in an event. Anyway, i hope dat we are able to raise more funds within these few days.

Supposed to meet my evaluator today. Suddenly, she said that its too short for 1/2 hr for a meeting. Haiz.. waste my trip to sch. Can go bank early leh.
Later meeting Mk @ Somerset to UOB Bank to bank in d donation $. Then going to the park to finish my unfinished work there. ciaoz... ;p

Yesterday, i went to watch the movie "Torque" with Danial, Mk, Shuan, Weng tat and Syahrul. We went to watch the morning show at Lido. So funny.. tat and syahrul went in first while danial, shuan and me went to buy food while mk accompanied us. Damn slow sia my food. Then when we get into the cinema, its oredi dark ah. Lucky the show hasn't start then. Everything was ok at d park. Sometimes funny coz MK will do the "Hail Mas" like the one done in Hitler. Everybody follow. lol.. They are damn funny. At nite, tired.. cannot take it.. the debrief was so long..Then i met yana and lays at sembawang mrt.. decided to alight wif yana at admiralty. Told her every single detail abt that guy and d conver we had. She was there by my side while i was crying. She said this is serious.. and i have grown up. Dunno wat she meant but i noe dat watever she says always make sense. She let me cry and cry and cry.
Yana sent me an sms which i think is meaningful:
i dun tink i really help dat much..but like wat u said to me once.. no one can help u but u urself can..still rem? so i juz pray dat u'll be strong.. if yr fate is wif him it will be, if not den let it go.. no use hang it on further. Most impt is to love urself 1st b4 anyone else..
Thank u yana! I'm trying my best rite now.
I'm such a loser..juz wanna live my life.. get out of my head pls......

Aku sedih.. sangat sedih. Ternyata, dia suka orang lain. Asal aku tulis dlm bahasa melayu..entah lah. Dia bilang dia suka salah satu sukarelawannye. I knew who it was.. i guessed it correctly. I noticed it. I cried when i got to noe abt it. I was damn sad. This is d first time i ever cried after knowing abt this kinda thing. Lucky, he told me tru online chat. Dia kata " U really noe me damn well". Of course lar.. asal dia selenge sangat. Sekarang, aku dah tahu yg dia suka orang lain.. I better move on wif my life. But he telling me all this means he really trust me and treat me as a buddy. So, i'll juz cherish it dat way and remember all d great things we have done together.

5/2:
Was busy at d park with the volunteers there. Then rush to sch for captain's ball but was late, so i didn't play. I think the guys are angry or something. But i couldn't care less abt all this. My mind is full of stuff. dunno wat i'm toking. In short, i am stress.
Then, i went back to the park. Had a great time there especially with Shuan and Mk. One is obsessed with the amt of $ collected for d day while d other is obsessed with getting a new phone on d next day. They r so funny. Raymond wants me to go to d bank d next day. So i brought the donation $ home.
Chat with Joanne L and Raymond. Raymond was asking me whether i wanna join them for mobile bus and other heartware events after graduation since i had a great time working with the ITE guys. They will be helping out in the mobile bus thingy with Epson. Raymond told me that he can get me to work with Epson too.
Then, he asked me whether i am interested to take over Vincent for chairmanship of Heartware Motivators. I was surprised and scared as it is a heavy responsibility. Told him that i'll think abt it. Joanne L encouraged me to join. They were saying that they will be helping me. I'm not sure. Still deciding. Dunno got the time anot. Still asking for pple's opinion. Wat do u all think? Yana? Nad? Eve? Me in a dilemma.

today:
Went to the bank today. Supposed to meet Shuan and go together. Guess he's tired. So, i went alone. Now me in fyp lab with my grp mates. Meeting my evaluator later. Sucks man..dun really like her.
okies.. adios... call me when u pple need a listening ear.. ..call me when u have time pple! u noe who u r lar... ;p

2/2:
Went to the park agn. Wat did i do over there.. hmm.. usual stuff. make sure the park is in order. Taught shuan and benjamin how to handle fundraising part. Was a but pissed off with Benjamin coz i felt he was being sarcastic. But nonetheless, i tried not to throw my temper. I was very worried abt the Fundraising part coz Shuan has to be clear and understands the method and concept. So, decided not to go for lect d following day. At nite, chat wif Raymond abt the FAQ. He suddenly wants us to add motivators. At such a short notice, i find that it is a bit late but no choice lar, boss say muz include means include lor.

3/2:
Went to watch morning show "The last Samurai" with MK and SK. So funny. I didn't noe dat sk wans to meet mk first to buy tickets. But on the other hand, me and mk oredi decided to meet at amk mrt platform. So, i was late, mk will be late too lar. Then sk got to noe me meet mk.. she was like " u idiot!!" haha.. so funny.. Met her at dhoby ghaut.. can't take it .. laugh all the way to PS. Not a lot of pple watch this morning show lar. So, we move from the back seat to the front seat. Dat sk go and push me.. i spilled my popcorns.. haiz..wasted u noe(giggling).. I find dat only me and sk were laughing whenever got funny scenes. The rest was like dead sia. Lucky sk go, or else i oso dead bored. Mk sometimes laugh but not that often. So, whoever go watch movie wif him alone..sure bored...haha..bad rite.. but he's a nice, sweet bro.. Muz find a nice girl for him since he is building a portfolio for me to go hougang chalet. ;p

today, i received my birthday present from eve, serene, weiling and mad. They bought for me 2 Hanes shirt. Haha.. so sweet.. i actually wanted to buy.. lucky din buy.. Thanx dudes! ;p
off i go for my tutorial.. buaiz~~

Today is a public holiday!! haha.. Selamat Hari Raya Haji..

29/1:
Me and my Orchard of Hope guys work late till 2.30am at d park juz 2 finish up d motivators tags. I was glad that my guys didn't complain coz after all.. orchard of hope guys were not supposed to do chingay stuffs. MK was very sweet.. we took a cab together and he send me to woodlands b4 going home to AMK which is nearer to Orchard. Thanx MK! I owe u chocolates..haha...
30/1:
Chingay Preview- Was very kan chiong wif Chingay coz i scared i'll blunder. Luckily, everything goes well with the help of my SRJC EXCOs( Patricia, Alvin and Hong xiang). Can't blame me for being nervous lah.. coz this is d first time i have to handle over 150 motivators on a sector alone. Being a chief motivator is not an easy task i can say. Summore, i have to run from one end of d sector to another. Tired leh.. But i wasn't really happy coz my Orchard of Hope guys were running ard helping Chingay when they weren't supposed to. Imagine them staying late on d previous day and then reach d park earlier on d next day. Then they have to run ard helping on d chingay stuffs. They were pissed off.
31/1:
Actual Chingay- I was having a great time coz d public r more onz. As usual i have to make sure my motivators r doing a good job. My feet hurts a lot. Got blisters.. but its all worth it. I had cramps in the early afternoon..so i popped a panadol after munching a few fries. Then, i went to treat my Orchard of Hope guys coffee bean drinks. So, basically d stuff i ate was juz a few fries and a panadol, and coffee. Then the running ard at my sector make me so exhausted, not forgetting the cramps. I think i can't take it till i blackout. Luckily i was squatting down. I was so scared dat i'll faint. Coz i can't.. i'm d only 1 wif walkie-talkie for my sector.. I'm d only chief for my sector. I prayed and prayed. Lucky i din faint.. jus rest for ard 5 to 10 mins. Then, off i went for running agn. Hengz.. And i was happy coz the Orchard of Hope guys r happy. Basically, they weren't running errands for Chingay. Luv my sector 3. I tot they will kinda hate me after all d screams, yells i did 2 them. haha.. But it turn out they weren't when they clap, shouted and scream the loudest for me when Justin thank Sector 3 chief motivator..haha.. I'm so touched! Reached home late agn like d other few days.

1/2:
Slept till noon. Then watch tv, wash d clothes.. Went Jurong Pt wif yana and nang. Had a great time window shopping and oso taking neo prints. Then, sat at Coffee bean for coffee. Waited for Yan while drinking coffee. Haha.. we were crapping all d time from the time we met till the time we say good bye. This is d only day i'm able to de-stress myself. Thanx Yana! ;p

oklar.. off i go to d park agn. Cheers! ;p