Decided to post more happy pictures..

I dunno y i laughed like dat..



Go massie Go!



Pathetic..



3 idiots posing with Ronald Mc Donald--> deprived childhood



massie:jon



yana act cute




Jamie:Mas:Eugenie

Okies.. i did wrote somewhere that i'm gonna have a great time rite? Not really that happening.. I was kinda pissed off at a certain time..
At 1st, i was with Eve and Nad.. having a great time drinking @ our usual hangout.. Starbucks.. drinking coffee, bitching, crapping..yar..not forgetting.. looking @ guys.. then, there is this staff who asked us to write some feedback.. D guy is cute tho..lol. Then, the three of us took photos using my phone.. i realised that it has been a long time since i used my phone to take photos..



Nad:Eve:Mas



Juz the 3 of us



3 of us again



Eve:Mas



Nad:Eve


Then i called yana juz to tell her that i'm on my way..when she says "change of timing:9pm instead".. Argh.. 1st thing, y nvr tell me change of time.. i was waiting to eat dinner with u pple. I have not eaten the whole day juz for this dinner.. yar, with this pathetic sum of $, i decided to set aside for dinner.. Okies.. i was feeling a bit pissed.. but still can control..
On the way to wdlds, yana called me and say she's not joining. She's not feeling well.(Okies, i was dozing off in the train and when i hear things that i dont like, i get grouchy easily) ARGH.. yana not joining? Not blaming her coz she's sick.. but i dunno y..i juz dont have the mood to meet up oredi. I felt *toot*. If i noe, i would have end my day with the 2 gals.
Anyway, jo called me and persuaded me to join him and lays. He noes i was pissed coz of the change of timing and of yana not joining. He kept persuading till i can't take it anymore. I was thinking.. since it has been a damn long time i have seen him and lays.. mite as well meet up. So, i walked to my home from Marsiling mrt. Then from my house to woodgrove. That's a long walking exercise for someone who has not eaten the whole day. While i was walking to woodgrove, i came up with a '10 things i hate about u' list.

10 Things I Hate About You
1. Insensitive
2. Bad liar
3. Dishonest
4. Coward
5. Being a confused idiot
6. Do not appreciate me
7. For knowing me the best
8. Being nice to me
9. Make me fall for u
10.Jerk

Okies.. that's a fast pace walk. If i noe, i should have juz taken a stroll there and i would come out with 20 things instead!
I'm not talking about u pple ok.. juz trying to come out with a list to kill my boredom then. On my way, i was admiring the moon..i remembered the peribahasa: bagaikan pungguk rindukan bulan.. I don't wanna be that owl.. sia2 aje tunggu.. relak one corner eh.. mite as well move on. ;p

Anyway, once i met jo and lays.. they looked @ me and say "Mas, u lose weight and look so tired". Yes pple.. i get it from my old frens and yes, of course tired after all the long walk. Went to Halil's stall and ate. Finally, ate something.. lol
Met Faisal (omg, he looks big.. like bapak seh) and his gf. Met Faiz oso. He looks as usual.. Met my primary school fren too.. Hafri.. dont think he recognise me lar..Gotta noe that they are all frens.. muz be tru that Elfi lar.. Anyway, none of my business, dont care much.

We crapped alot there and finally decided to go 7-11 eat softee.. so me, jo and lays went for another long walk. Jo treat us softee. Haha.. i was giving him the looks..'the as usual bitchy look for him to treat us'.. haha.. his reply "i noe lar.. i noe lar.." lol..

We sat at d void deck.. eating ice-cream... talking abt our lives.. realised we have not met for more than 4 mths.. dats long to me.. how i wished we can meet up often.. but our schedule are so packed. Jo was saying that we have grown up.. in terms of maturity.. especially me.. coz i always look jovial, bubbly.. now, still dat but more changes.. Yar.. i'm always the small kid at the block among them(jo, lays, yana).

We've decided to go for a short holiday.. either to johor eden gardens or juz pulau ubin.. after national day period lar ei... then i'll be a bit stress free.
Can't wait to go for this trips!.. get away from Singapore.. and oso from some pple..

I've gotta save lotsa $ man.. going for this trip.. then, to either pulau redang or phuket with eve & nad. Koh Samui is too expensive lar..
Then, not forgetting.. maybe going Taiwan with Jojo..
But i still wanna save some $ to go Cambodia or Bangkok.. see lar eh..

I wanna get out of Singapore.. so dats my goal.. save $ to go to these places..

Thursday, 21st April 05:
Had a meeting with the SMU exco team for Canberra Malacca Trip, and another with the boys in the evening. Intro Steve then too. They clicked well. Good! I realised that Aza and Steve blend well in our culture.. yar, not forgetting apah and Mr Sam. Lol..

After the meeting, i stayed back in the office to finish up my work while waiting for Shuan to reformat Mr Sam's pc. Then Vicky and Moko was doing their own stuff. I was so tired that i slept in the office while waiting for them. Haiz.. people who hold the key sometimes can be suay u noe... lol

Went for dinner at Mc as usual. But i guess i was so tired that i juz had a drink. They tried their best to tempt me but to no avail. But with the 3 boys entertaining or bitching abt others juz tickles me. haha..

Friday, 22nd April 05:
Okies.. i dressed up nicely yar.. Everybody in the office was shocked that i wore a formal top and skirt. Alar.. muz wear smart casual for KCPSS Founder's Day mah. Was being bullied by the guys in the office. Argh.. i need backup! Where is Jojo? Carol? We need to join forces to counter these pple! lol.. Other than being bullied, we were moving the tables, chairs.. rearranging the furnitures lar.. Wat a good way to change the environment! At least it freshens your mind.

Went KCPSS Founder's Day with Jojo. Boss was sick.. so did not attend. As usual, we had a fun time entertaining ourselves. She tot i was praying too during the prayer session coz i looked serious and lowered my head. Jojo! I have not lost my faith lar.. i was juz respecting. But since the comment, i have been looking up at the cloudy sky and moon. She saw her primary sch teacher. And someone called my name and i din recognise him. So sorry boy.. too many volunteers dat i have met. but now, u will be stored in my mind. ;p
Had a great time chatting with Aileen and husband (Eugenie's aunt and uncle). They are super friendly. They sent us to Woodlands MRT Station. Then, from there.. we made our own way home. Thanx to them!

Now..
In the office.. clearing up the paper work.. was crapping the whole morning with Carol and Aza. Haha.. Aza bully me!! he threw the box directly at my forehead.. pain sei.. but managed to make him feel guilty! haha.. Moko, jon, Mr Sam and Little Sam were here too.. I'm juz waiting for time to fly.. meeting Eve and Nad at Orchard, 3 plus.. then i am meeting Yana and Jo in the evening at Al-Amin. Gonna have a hell of a time bitching and crapping the whole day! What a great day~~~

hehe.. have been trying to blog about what happened for the past few days but alamak.. no time lar.. Anyway, jojo!! if you are reading this entry, yes.. i'm in office.. but i'm having my break! okies! lol..

erm..
Okies..

Monday, 18th April 05:
As usual, I can't remember what exactly i did.. Work.. work.. and yar! Went to SMU for an NDP meeting with boss, lao da and the new exco. Then, went jogging with Moko at Woodlands Stadium. Yeah.. and we met Yana & Syah too. That yana.. so lazy.. give excuses as not to jog yar. lol..
But muz thank this bro of mine who's willing to accompany me to jog so far from home. Okies.. he's making alot of noises now.. irritating boy.. so kepo.. reading what i'm typing.


Tuesday, 19th April 05:
Work lar.. and yeah,in the evening i had a date with Nad and Eve. I really tot i heard we were meeting at Raffles City Starbucks. I waited and waited.. and finally got to noe that we were supposed to meet at Suntec City Starbucks.. Lol.. wat an idiot i have been. Anyway, we did a lot of catching up with our lives. Crap a lot abt jerks.. as usual.. the common term we always use. And nad even remembered about me and eve want to die together by getting ourselves knock down by a truck or something. And according to her expertise or forte, she was supposed to write a book to commerate about our (myself and eve) pathetic lives. LOL..

Eve want to die all this while.. haha.. Eve! we stab each other bah.. Nad was saying that we should juz drink poison. Then i told eve.. if we drink poison together, it will be Juliet and Juliet. Pple may think that we are lesbians.. Haha.. so, bad idea. I think we need to do a more constructive plan lar.. And if we die, Nad has to write something about us. Like those christians, whose best fren will talk about how gd that person has been when he/she was alive. But hey nad, i rather you talk about how pathetic our lives has been. And eve intro me a new song by David Tao! Okies, will grab his cd when i got my pay.

See how sadistic my life has been?

Wednesday, 20th April 05:
Erm, went to SRJC for HCC recruitment. Met Cindy, Cheryl.. and blah blah blah.. Had a great time talking with students. Oh yar, have been eating this wasabi crackers.. damn hot.. Then went for mentoring in the evening! I was so happy that Faridah was there. Had a real great time catching up with our lives. She's now actively participating in Sri Warna. U go gal! If that's wat you wanna do, go for it. Juz don't neglect your studies. We played a game after the session. We were so enthu and running around. I tripped and hurt my elbow sei.. Din realised i got a cut. Anyway, had a great time with the rest of the mentors too. Especially Cheryl and Bertz.. He was walking around most of the time, coz his mentee didn't attend the session. Basically entertaining us. Hehe..

Yesterday, I was a good girl. Helped mum to sweep and mop the floor. Met Eve @ Starbucks, Tampines. Realised we haven't met for a long time..We talked about our lives as usual. I had a pleasant time with her talking about jerks. Lol.. Coincidentally, Cindy was around the area.. or should i say she was looking for me.. Watever it was, we met for a while before i finally met Shuan. He was helping my sis and bro for their wedding video. So, we went to their office and johore to video them + asking them qns. The day was considered ok.. had fun? ok lar.. But i was feeling very tired.. maybe becoz of wat i did the day before. So, i went to sleep as soon as i reached the bed. Cindy called me when i was sleeping. So when i answered her call, it seems as tho i was sian.. but actually no lar.. So, Cindy... dont think too much yar. ;p

Today, i was at home the whole day. Karaoke with mum and ferdah. Sang the whole cd of Siti Nurhaliza old songs + Liza Hanim. Macam jiwang gitu. haha.. Anyway, it was a good way to destress myself. And it sure did..

Then, now.. while i'm updating this blog, I'm actually watching a very boring Malay movie in Suria Channel. Its as tho i have nothing to do yar.. when in fact, i actually have lotsa things to do.. Excited about tomorrow.. a brand new day for me at least for the 1st day of the week. Going for a jog with Moko after work. ;p

Thursday, 14th April 05:
Work, had bus meeting with the boys. Went to busu's house. Brought Shuanti along to help my uncle on his wireless network thingy. We reached at 930pm. And yar.. we met Aza at Simei Mrt. Apparently, we were in the same train. LOL. We walked together to my uncle's place. He's staying around the area oso. ;p
Then myself and Shuanti stayed until near to 1am. That birdie was really a great help. Thanx Shuan.
We walked to his flat there and i hailed a cab from there. Cheaper~~ hengz ah.. got enuff $. If not.. gotta help uncle wash car sia..
Not forgetting, thanx to busu for the pretty earrings! lurve it~~ Haha.. Kak linda jealous sei, coz she says busu always give me stuffs.. Bleahz~~ ;p


Wednesday, 13th April 05:
Went to SRJC for the teacher's dialogue session. Met the volunteers there as well. So nice to see them. Especially Cindy! She kan chiong queen ah. Haha.. Ate Sakae Sushi neh.. Then stayed back late again.. with Shuanti, Ah Yao, and Aza. We ate dinner at where? argh.. Mc again! haha.. Was enjoying my dinner with Ah Yao entertaining us. hehe..

Tuesday, 12th April 05:
Work, work, work.. And more work as i left office late. Shuanti and myself ate Mc Donalds for dinner. As usual lar.. no other place to go. He said dat this Mc really earn alot from us. lol.

Monday, 11th April 05:
Wat did i do? hmm.. doing work as usual

Sunday, 10th April 05:
Went to Chinese Garden and Esplanade with Vic and Moko. They were taking photographs while i enjoyed the scenery. I felt that i can breathe with ease when i'm enjoying the scenery. No problems to think about or should i say "i tried not to think about". Enjoyed the evening with them. Seeing photographers in action. Cool yar.. haha..

Mengapakah hati akan rasakan peritnye bila bercinta?
Sometimes i wonder whether its both of us.. or juz 1 sided. It takes 2 hands to clap rite? Apa yang kita lalui seperti alam mimpi setelah kau pergi hari itu. Everything changed since then. The last words then were " Take care, Enjoy yourself and bye!" And that last conver were definitely the most awkward conver we ever had. Aku rasa dia telah sedar apa yg ku rasakan terhadapnye.

Setelah kau kembali, tidak berbual lagi di telefon. Bukan seperti dulu biler kita kerap berbual di tengah-tengah malam. Ku ingat masa-masa itu. Di telefon, kau bermain bola di komputer sambil berbual. U'll scream when u lose. Dan aku akan dengarkan sahaja dan ketawakan gelagatmu. Dan kita akan bernyanyi lagu kegemaranku bersama. Adakah kami hanya kawan? Pelik rasanye.

Kau akan bermain dengan anting2 ku. Kau mengurut lenganku yg kau cubit dengan full of concern. Adakah aku hanya kawan padamu?

Kita menonton wayang berdua sahaja. Kau tahu penatnye aku rasa pada malam itu. Kau membiarkan aku tidur dengan kepalaku merehat di bahumu. Ku ingin masa berhenti waktu itu. Aku mahu bersendirian denganmu untuk selama-lamanya. Aku giler? Aku mabuk cinta?Kau melindungiku dan sentiasa di sisiku ketika aku memerlukan seseorang.

Tapi.. itu semua masa yg lalu. Kau berubah terhadapku and aku jua begitu.. setelah kau kembali.

Ku tak tahu kalau kau sedar, tetapi masa silam itu adalah masa yg sangat terindah. Aku harap kau merasakan jua. Kau mungkin tidak mengerti betapa peritnye ku rasakan pada masa ini. Aku mahukan masa itu kembali tapi ku sedar itu tak akan terjadi. Orang selalu berkata kita seperti lebih dari kawan. Kita mempunyai banyak similarities.. pemikiran dan hobi. Sama2 stubborn juga rasanye.

Hanya satu persoalan sahaja yang sentiasa di hatiku, "Adakah kau merasakan apa yg ku rasai pada masa itu dan sekarang?"

All d best to u and yr life. Aku telah berjanji dengan diriku untuk hidup berterusan tanpamu di sisiku. I have made so many steps.. Now it's your turn. If not, biarlah hati ini pulih perlahan.

Apakah itu cinta?
Tiba-tiba sahaja kita suka pada kelakuan orang itu...
Pelikkan.. Aku tak mahu bercinta lagi rasanya setelah ini semua terjadi. Seperti ku katakan.. semua ini perit.

Terima kasih untuk kenangan manis itu.
Akan ku melupakan mu.. ku harapkan, doakan yg aku lupakan mu.

P/S: Yana, thanx for all you have done for me. I'll heed yr advice. Thanx bestfren.

Okies! I'm back! Updates..

Dec:
-Silkpro Celebration Tree @ Orchard
-Moi learn ice-skating from volunteers
-Moi's birthday @ Orchard

Jan:
-Orchard of Hope
-Moi and yana learn roller-blading from Shuan
-Watched soccer with Shuan and Ah Tat @ Chijmes
-Moi went bowling with Shuan coz roller-blading shop close at 7pm.. haha.. felt so dumb then

Feb:
-Chingay!
-Ice-skating rink @ Tampines. The only time i have been going to Tampines often since poly life
-Watch Hitch and Hide and Seek in 2 consecutive days.

March:
-Work in office most of the time
-Star 1 Kayaking Course with Shuan, Jojo, Serene K. The most enjoyable time i had for these few months. I get to do something i enjoyed. Will practice and go for my Star 2 Kayaking Course soon.

April:
-Bintan Retreat Recce with Shuan, Jojo, Vicky. A fun recce with 2 boys to entertain us. A roller-coaster ride to Tanjung Pinang which i will not forget. Will not forget how Shuan and myself cornered Jojo in the car by leaning against her (like dominoes). We slept while she kept her eyes open in case the driver sell us off.. lol.
-Bintan Retreat. Had so much fun despite the endless meetings. Moi same room as lao da. Moi and lao da were gazing at the stars during the 1st nite. We were so lucky coz 2nd nite was cloudy. 2nd day, went to the beach in the morning while all the youngsters went swimming in the pool at nite. SO funny, jojo was nagging at the boys not to swim far and stop doing stunts. Then we went to jojo and carol's room to play cards, watch tv.. and some to eat. Moi, vicky, shuan and yong went to Mana mana beach to see how the party was like. Eventually, we went to the beach while listening to the party's music.
All were tired..
-2 days after the retreat, myself and the boys went for Canberra's Sec 2 Adventure Camp at Dairy Farm Rd. As usual, with Vicky ard.. we had fun. Moi, Shuan, Jon, Boon and Chye Lee hike bukit timah summit twice within the 2 days. Wow.. fit ah.. And i was stung by a honey bee. Shucks.. to sweet oredi..haha
-Yesterday, went to play netball @ Kallang Netball Ctr. So fun! Muz do this often!
-Today, went to work in the morning. Forgot office password, the thing rang like hell. And went to Johor with Kak Linda, Bro jin and Nang in the afternoon.

WOOHOO.. i need to change the blogskin dude.. sleepy now.. waiting for cindy to go online.. haha..ciaoz!