Okies.. i did wrote somewhere that i'm gonna have a great time rite? Not really that happening.. I was kinda pissed off at a certain time..
At 1st, i was with Eve and Nad.. having a great time drinking @ our usual hangout.. Starbucks.. drinking coffee, bitching, crapping..yar..not forgetting.. looking @ guys.. then, there is this staff who asked us to write some feedback.. D guy is cute tho..lol. Then, the three of us took photos using my phone.. i realised that it has been a long time since i used my phone to take photos..



Nad:Eve:Mas



Juz the 3 of us



3 of us again



Eve:Mas



Nad:Eve


Then i called yana juz to tell her that i'm on my way..when she says "change of timing:9pm instead".. Argh.. 1st thing, y nvr tell me change of time.. i was waiting to eat dinner with u pple. I have not eaten the whole day juz for this dinner.. yar, with this pathetic sum of $, i decided to set aside for dinner.. Okies.. i was feeling a bit pissed.. but still can control..
On the way to wdlds, yana called me and say she's not joining. She's not feeling well.(Okies, i was dozing off in the train and when i hear things that i dont like, i get grouchy easily) ARGH.. yana not joining? Not blaming her coz she's sick.. but i dunno y..i juz dont have the mood to meet up oredi. I felt *toot*. If i noe, i would have end my day with the 2 gals.
Anyway, jo called me and persuaded me to join him and lays. He noes i was pissed coz of the change of timing and of yana not joining. He kept persuading till i can't take it anymore. I was thinking.. since it has been a damn long time i have seen him and lays.. mite as well meet up. So, i walked to my home from Marsiling mrt. Then from my house to woodgrove. That's a long walking exercise for someone who has not eaten the whole day. While i was walking to woodgrove, i came up with a '10 things i hate about u' list.

10 Things I Hate About You
1. Insensitive
2. Bad liar
3. Dishonest
4. Coward
5. Being a confused idiot
6. Do not appreciate me
7. For knowing me the best
8. Being nice to me
9. Make me fall for u
10.Jerk

Okies.. that's a fast pace walk. If i noe, i should have juz taken a stroll there and i would come out with 20 things instead!
I'm not talking about u pple ok.. juz trying to come out with a list to kill my boredom then. On my way, i was admiring the moon..i remembered the peribahasa: bagaikan pungguk rindukan bulan.. I don't wanna be that owl.. sia2 aje tunggu.. relak one corner eh.. mite as well move on. ;p

Anyway, once i met jo and lays.. they looked @ me and say "Mas, u lose weight and look so tired". Yes pple.. i get it from my old frens and yes, of course tired after all the long walk. Went to Halil's stall and ate. Finally, ate something.. lol
Met Faisal (omg, he looks big.. like bapak seh) and his gf. Met Faiz oso. He looks as usual.. Met my primary school fren too.. Hafri.. dont think he recognise me lar..Gotta noe that they are all frens.. muz be tru that Elfi lar.. Anyway, none of my business, dont care much.

We crapped alot there and finally decided to go 7-11 eat softee.. so me, jo and lays went for another long walk. Jo treat us softee. Haha.. i was giving him the looks..'the as usual bitchy look for him to treat us'.. haha.. his reply "i noe lar.. i noe lar.." lol..

We sat at d void deck.. eating ice-cream... talking abt our lives.. realised we have not met for more than 4 mths.. dats long to me.. how i wished we can meet up often.. but our schedule are so packed. Jo was saying that we have grown up.. in terms of maturity.. especially me.. coz i always look jovial, bubbly.. now, still dat but more changes.. Yar.. i'm always the small kid at the block among them(jo, lays, yana).

We've decided to go for a short holiday.. either to johor eden gardens or juz pulau ubin.. after national day period lar ei... then i'll be a bit stress free.
Can't wait to go for this trips!.. get away from Singapore.. and oso from some pple..

I've gotta save lotsa $ man.. going for this trip.. then, to either pulau redang or phuket with eve & nad. Koh Samui is too expensive lar..
Then, not forgetting.. maybe going Taiwan with Jojo..
But i still wanna save some $ to go Cambodia or Bangkok.. see lar eh..

I wanna get out of Singapore.. so dats my goal.. save $ to go to these places..

Thursday, 21st April 05:
Had a meeting with the SMU exco team for Canberra Malacca Trip, and another with the boys in the evening. Intro Steve then too. They clicked well. Good! I realised that Aza and Steve blend well in our culture.. yar, not forgetting apah and Mr Sam. Lol..

After the meeting, i stayed back in the office to finish up my work while waiting for Shuan to reformat Mr Sam's pc. Then Vicky and Moko was doing their own stuff. I was so tired that i slept in the office while waiting for them. Haiz.. people who hold the key sometimes can be suay u noe... lol

Went for dinner at Mc as usual. But i guess i was so tired that i juz had a drink. They tried their best to tempt me but to no avail. But with the 3 boys entertaining or bitching abt others juz tickles me. haha..

Friday, 22nd April 05:
Okies.. i dressed up nicely yar.. Everybody in the office was shocked that i wore a formal top and skirt. Alar.. muz wear smart casual for KCPSS Founder's Day mah. Was being bullied by the guys in the office. Argh.. i need backup! Where is Jojo? Carol? We need to join forces to counter these pple! lol.. Other than being bullied, we were moving the tables, chairs.. rearranging the furnitures lar.. Wat a good way to change the environment! At least it freshens your mind.

Went KCPSS Founder's Day with Jojo. Boss was sick.. so did not attend. As usual, we had a fun time entertaining ourselves. She tot i was praying too during the prayer session coz i looked serious and lowered my head. Jojo! I have not lost my faith lar.. i was juz respecting. But since the comment, i have been looking up at the cloudy sky and moon. She saw her primary sch teacher. And someone called my name and i din recognise him. So sorry boy.. too many volunteers dat i have met. but now, u will be stored in my mind. ;p
Had a great time chatting with Aileen and husband (Eugenie's aunt and uncle). They are super friendly. They sent us to Woodlands MRT Station. Then, from there.. we made our own way home. Thanx to them!

Now..
In the office.. clearing up the paper work.. was crapping the whole morning with Carol and Aza. Haha.. Aza bully me!! he threw the box directly at my forehead.. pain sei.. but managed to make him feel guilty! haha.. Moko, jon, Mr Sam and Little Sam were here too.. I'm juz waiting for time to fly.. meeting Eve and Nad at Orchard, 3 plus.. then i am meeting Yana and Jo in the evening at Al-Amin. Gonna have a hell of a time bitching and crapping the whole day! What a great day~~~

hehe.. have been trying to blog about what happened for the past few days but alamak.. no time lar.. Anyway, jojo!! if you are reading this entry, yes.. i'm in office.. but i'm having my break! okies! lol..

erm..
Okies..

Monday, 18th April 05:
As usual, I can't remember what exactly i did.. Work.. work.. and yar! Went to SMU for an NDP meeting with boss, lao da and the new exco. Then, went jogging with Moko at Woodlands Stadium. Yeah.. and we met Yana & Syah too. That yana.. so lazy.. give excuses as not to jog yar. lol..
But muz thank this bro of mine who's willing to accompany me to jog so far from home. Okies.. he's making alot of noises now.. irritating boy.. so kepo.. reading what i'm typing.


Tuesday, 19th April 05:
Work lar.. and yeah,in the evening i had a date with Nad and Eve. I really tot i heard we were meeting at Raffles City Starbucks. I waited and waited.. and finally got to noe that we were supposed to meet at Suntec City Starbucks.. Lol.. wat an idiot i have been. Anyway, we did a lot of catching up with our lives. Crap a lot abt jerks.. as usual.. the common term we always use. And nad even remembered about me and eve want to die together by getting ourselves knock down by a truck or something. And according to her expertise or forte, she was supposed to write a book to commerate about our (myself and eve) pathetic lives. LOL..

Eve want to die all this while.. haha.. Eve! we stab each other bah.. Nad was saying that we should juz drink poison. Then i told eve.. if we drink poison together, it will be Juliet and Juliet. Pple may think that we are lesbians.. Haha.. so, bad idea. I think we need to do a more constructive plan lar.. And if we die, Nad has to write something about us. Like those christians, whose best fren will talk about how gd that person has been when he/she was alive. But hey nad, i rather you talk about how pathetic our lives has been. And eve intro me a new song by David Tao! Okies, will grab his cd when i got my pay.

See how sadistic my life has been?

Wednesday, 20th April 05:
Erm, went to SRJC for HCC recruitment. Met Cindy, Cheryl.. and blah blah blah.. Had a great time talking with students. Oh yar, have been eating this wasabi crackers.. damn hot.. Then went for mentoring in the evening! I was so happy that Faridah was there. Had a real great time catching up with our lives. She's now actively participating in Sri Warna. U go gal! If that's wat you wanna do, go for it. Juz don't neglect your studies. We played a game after the session. We were so enthu and running around. I tripped and hurt my elbow sei.. Din realised i got a cut. Anyway, had a great time with the rest of the mentors too. Especially Cheryl and Bertz.. He was walking around most of the time, coz his mentee didn't attend the session. Basically entertaining us. Hehe..

Yesterday, I was a good girl. Helped mum to sweep and mop the floor. Met Eve @ Starbucks, Tampines. Realised we haven't met for a long time..We talked about our lives as usual. I had a pleasant time with her talking about jerks. Lol.. Coincidentally, Cindy was around the area.. or should i say she was looking for me.. Watever it was, we met for a while before i finally met Shuan. He was helping my sis and bro for their wedding video. So, we went to their office and johore to video them + asking them qns. The day was considered ok.. had fun? ok lar.. But i was feeling very tired.. maybe becoz of wat i did the day before. So, i went to sleep as soon as i reached the bed. Cindy called me when i was sleeping. So when i answered her call, it seems as tho i was sian.. but actually no lar.. So, Cindy... dont think too much yar. ;p

Today, i was at home the whole day. Karaoke with mum and ferdah. Sang the whole cd of Siti Nurhaliza old songs + Liza Hanim. Macam jiwang gitu. haha.. Anyway, it was a good way to destress myself. And it sure did..

Then, now.. while i'm updating this blog, I'm actually watching a very boring Malay movie in Suria Channel. Its as tho i have nothing to do yar.. when in fact, i actually have lotsa things to do.. Excited about tomorrow.. a brand new day for me at least for the 1st day of the week. Going for a jog with Moko after work. ;p

Thursday, 14th April 05:
Work, had bus meeting with the boys. Went to busu's house. Brought Shuanti along to help my uncle on his wireless network thingy. We reached at 930pm. And yar.. we met Aza at Simei Mrt. Apparently, we were in the same train. LOL. We walked together to my uncle's place. He's staying around the area oso. ;p
Then myself and Shuanti stayed until near to 1am. That birdie was really a great help. Thanx Shuan.
We walked to his flat there and i hailed a cab from there. Cheaper~~ hengz ah.. got enuff $. If not.. gotta help uncle wash car sia..
Not forgetting, thanx to busu for the pretty earrings! lurve it~~ Haha.. Kak linda jealous sei, coz she says busu always give me stuffs.. Bleahz~~ ;p


Wednesday, 13th April 05:
Went to SRJC for the teacher's dialogue session. Met the volunteers there as well. So nice to see them. Especially Cindy! She kan chiong queen ah. Haha.. Ate Sakae Sushi neh.. Then stayed back late again.. with Shuanti, Ah Yao, and Aza. We ate dinner at where? argh.. Mc again! haha.. Was enjoying my dinner with Ah Yao entertaining us. hehe..

Tuesday, 12th April 05:
Work, work, work.. And more work as i left office late. Shuanti and myself ate Mc Donalds for dinner. As usual lar.. no other place to go. He said dat this Mc really earn alot from us. lol.

Monday, 11th April 05:
Wat did i do? hmm.. doing work as usual

Sunday, 10th April 05:
Went to Chinese Garden and Esplanade with Vic and Moko. They were taking photographs while i enjoyed the scenery. I felt that i can breathe with ease when i'm enjoying the scenery. No problems to think about or should i say "i tried not to think about". Enjoyed the evening with them. Seeing photographers in action. Cool yar.. haha..

Mengapakah hati akan rasakan peritnye bila bercinta?
Sometimes i wonder whether its both of us.. or juz 1 sided. It takes 2 hands to clap rite? Apa yang kita lalui seperti alam mimpi setelah kau pergi hari itu. Everything changed since then. The last words then were " Take care, Enjoy yourself and bye!" And that last conver were definitely the most awkward conver we ever had. Aku rasa dia telah sedar apa yg ku rasakan terhadapnye.

Setelah kau kembali, tidak berbual lagi di telefon. Bukan seperti dulu biler kita kerap berbual di tengah-tengah malam. Ku ingat masa-masa itu. Di telefon, kau bermain bola di komputer sambil berbual. U'll scream when u lose. Dan aku akan dengarkan sahaja dan ketawakan gelagatmu. Dan kita akan bernyanyi lagu kegemaranku bersama. Adakah kami hanya kawan? Pelik rasanye.

Kau akan bermain dengan anting2 ku. Kau mengurut lenganku yg kau cubit dengan full of concern. Adakah aku hanya kawan padamu?

Kita menonton wayang berdua sahaja. Kau tahu penatnye aku rasa pada malam itu. Kau membiarkan aku tidur dengan kepalaku merehat di bahumu. Ku ingin masa berhenti waktu itu. Aku mahu bersendirian denganmu untuk selama-lamanya. Aku giler? Aku mabuk cinta?Kau melindungiku dan sentiasa di sisiku ketika aku memerlukan seseorang.

Tapi.. itu semua masa yg lalu. Kau berubah terhadapku and aku jua begitu.. setelah kau kembali.

Ku tak tahu kalau kau sedar, tetapi masa silam itu adalah masa yg sangat terindah. Aku harap kau merasakan jua. Kau mungkin tidak mengerti betapa peritnye ku rasakan pada masa ini. Aku mahukan masa itu kembali tapi ku sedar itu tak akan terjadi. Orang selalu berkata kita seperti lebih dari kawan. Kita mempunyai banyak similarities.. pemikiran dan hobi. Sama2 stubborn juga rasanye.

Hanya satu persoalan sahaja yang sentiasa di hatiku, "Adakah kau merasakan apa yg ku rasai pada masa itu dan sekarang?"

All d best to u and yr life. Aku telah berjanji dengan diriku untuk hidup berterusan tanpamu di sisiku. I have made so many steps.. Now it's your turn. If not, biarlah hati ini pulih perlahan.

Apakah itu cinta?
Tiba-tiba sahaja kita suka pada kelakuan orang itu...
Pelikkan.. Aku tak mahu bercinta lagi rasanya setelah ini semua terjadi. Seperti ku katakan.. semua ini perit.

Terima kasih untuk kenangan manis itu.
Akan ku melupakan mu.. ku harapkan, doakan yg aku lupakan mu.

P/S: Yana, thanx for all you have done for me. I'll heed yr advice. Thanx bestfren.

Okies! I'm back! Updates..

Dec:
-Silkpro Celebration Tree @ Orchard
-Moi learn ice-skating from volunteers
-Moi's birthday @ Orchard

Jan:
-Orchard of Hope
-Moi and yana learn roller-blading from Shuan
-Watched soccer with Shuan and Ah Tat @ Chijmes
-Moi went bowling with Shuan coz roller-blading shop close at 7pm.. haha.. felt so dumb then

Feb:
-Chingay!
-Ice-skating rink @ Tampines. The only time i have been going to Tampines often since poly life
-Watch Hitch and Hide and Seek in 2 consecutive days.

March:
-Work in office most of the time
-Star 1 Kayaking Course with Shuan, Jojo, Serene K. The most enjoyable time i had for these few months. I get to do something i enjoyed. Will practice and go for my Star 2 Kayaking Course soon.

April:
-Bintan Retreat Recce with Shuan, Jojo, Vicky. A fun recce with 2 boys to entertain us. A roller-coaster ride to Tanjung Pinang which i will not forget. Will not forget how Shuan and myself cornered Jojo in the car by leaning against her (like dominoes). We slept while she kept her eyes open in case the driver sell us off.. lol.
-Bintan Retreat. Had so much fun despite the endless meetings. Moi same room as lao da. Moi and lao da were gazing at the stars during the 1st nite. We were so lucky coz 2nd nite was cloudy. 2nd day, went to the beach in the morning while all the youngsters went swimming in the pool at nite. SO funny, jojo was nagging at the boys not to swim far and stop doing stunts. Then we went to jojo and carol's room to play cards, watch tv.. and some to eat. Moi, vicky, shuan and yong went to Mana mana beach to see how the party was like. Eventually, we went to the beach while listening to the party's music.
All were tired..
-2 days after the retreat, myself and the boys went for Canberra's Sec 2 Adventure Camp at Dairy Farm Rd. As usual, with Vicky ard.. we had fun. Moi, Shuan, Jon, Boon and Chye Lee hike bukit timah summit twice within the 2 days. Wow.. fit ah.. And i was stung by a honey bee. Shucks.. to sweet oredi..haha
-Yesterday, went to play netball @ Kallang Netball Ctr. So fun! Muz do this often!
-Today, went to work in the morning. Forgot office password, the thing rang like hell. And went to Johor with Kak Linda, Bro jin and Nang in the afternoon.

WOOHOO.. i need to change the blogskin dude.. sleepy now.. waiting for cindy to go online.. haha..ciaoz!

haha.. u guyz miss me so much ah? haha.. actually has been trying to post some stuffs but dunno wat the hell happened to my blogger last week. So i gave up then. Maybe my blog needs some peace of mind from all my crappiness(is there such word?watever).

So now, basically waiting for Jo-jo to pass me the powerpoint slides which i have to edit for tomorrow's SRJC talk.
Yesterday, went to Kak Long's (yana's sis) house. Nice place u noe. Windy.. and lotsa dvds. hehe.. Watch 2 movies nonstop : paycheck and bad brothers 2. Then i borrowed their cartoon dvds. So, i watched brother bear rite after i reached home. Movie marathon? u can say so.

Now, maybe i should watch SHREK.. haha... tata..

And u frens out there.. wanna volunteer for December event? email me yar..

Now basically listening to malay songs.. addicted to the old song 'dekat padamu' by yusry and another song by him and erra.

Resting for awhile while chatting with qingyao.. miss this bro.. and not forgetting lao da..

Anyway, yesterday, as usual i watch cartoon @ disney channel and hindi movie 'kushi' @ central. Make jelly oso. So free like dat.. haha..

Watch buttefly effects again until i slept. Haven return the vcds to weng tat. ;p
Guess i wont be able to watch mamma mia coz i wanna save $ to buy a photo printer, a good scanner which can scan negatives as well. And not forgetting a digi cam.
Will take the fasting month as an opportunity to save more $. Went to funan with yana and mk last sat. Canon was having sales.. sianz.. no $.

Yana left earlier, so me and mk played xbox. Then went home, ferdah still there. She damn cute. As usual lar.. mak long iis is 4 mths pregnant. Cool~
Had a great time with this naughty cuzzin of mine. Anyway, i met my relative @ Funan.. then guess wat.. i saw him again today during lunch. Din greet him coz i dun even noe whether he remember me.. Wondering... wat a coincidence.. twice in juz a few days.. hmm..

Hmm.. nice song... u all noe wat song is this? haha... the sassy girl movie... remember?

Haha.. i still can remember that me and yana were making a fool of ourselves juz to purchase this vcd. Took out all our $ including lotsa coins.

Anyway, there's lotsa shows/plays i wanna watch next mth which includes 2 plays which are Mamma Mia and the Visit of the Tai Tai by wildrice. Hmm.. and Blue concert. AHH!!!
I was checking Sistic whether the tix for Blue concert are selling like hot cakes but.. all were still available.. even the 24 bucks tix. If i can get my $ by monday, and the tix are still available, i will get it for sure. $24 juz to see my fav band. Aww.. juz pray hard..

Decided to change another skin. Dunnoe how many times muz i keep changing my skin. Anyway, was trying to edit the design by putting my pix. Trying to be unique ah.. but as u all noe, my design sux. So, juz make do wif it. haha..
sleepy le.. wonder if i can wake up by 645am to jog.. hmm.. better get yana to wake me up. NItez... ;p

Was crying while walking my way home from the mrt. I am frustrated, angry, jealous, sad. Its really the kind of mixed feeling. I'm so angry with myself for smsing dat. I'm sorry. I'm just being a bitch. I'm so upset for being a jealous, selfish brat.

Its juz dat i dunno how my life will be when all this start. I wouldnt noe who i will actually share my stuff with when u r not there. Nobody will care much about me. Nobody understands me as much as u do. We've known each other for how long? 8yrs? wow..i didn't noe it has been a long time.

I still remember the first time i introduce myself to you. You were outside the office, and i approached you. I tot i have found my best pal(dunno y, think its instinct) but it was soon all over to think of that when I introduced u to Mardhati. U 2 clicked so well that i was left behind. I decided to walk away, maybe you r not destined to be my best friend.

I still remember the time we exchange friends certificate during CME. Yours was so nice. I felt so touched.

I still remember how you persuade me to join NPCC but in d end, you were the one who didn't attend most of the time during sec 1. But you were active after sec 2 because we were promoted and you weren't. You won't wanna be lazy like b4.

I still remember the time we practice for campcraft competition. How we struggled under the rain.

I still remember the times when we have a crush on the same guy.

We were still frens, still classmates until the time we stayed together as classmates in sec 3. We get closer. We talk about all the stuff. Any stuff. I always stayed at yr house. Finally, you are my BESTFRIEND.

I still remember the time i sprained my ankle during a netball inter-school competition. It was our finals. You were on the other side of the court. You ran all the way to my side and help me up. I was so, so touched when u were anxious about me. I knew you are the only fren who cared that much for me.

I still remember the time when we were nervous and scared that we wont be in the same poly. About how we are going to adapt without each other for support. I was proud of you. You finally break out of yr shell and make new frens, more frens. You were different then in sec sch when you were quiet, reserve yrself from others. You were juz crazy when you were with our other close frens. I was happy. Friends were saying you have changed because of that. But the change was a gd change.

I still remember we went for Mentoring together. I pulled you coz i was interested. We had a great time together with our 2 other close frens.

I still remember how i struggle tru my projects and you were there for me when i needed comfort.

I still remember the time when i was sick. Everytime i was sick, you would accompany me to the clinic. You were always the one who was there for me.

There are so, so, many things you have done for me. Sometimes, not being appreciated by me. I'm always the stubborn one. And you always have to give in to me. When we quarrelled, you were always the one who would approach me after our silent, cold war.

I'm sorry for being selfish. I'm sorry for not being a best buddy to u. I should be happy for you instead of sad. I should have said "at last.. you made it". I should be the one encouraging you at this moment in time.

I'm sorry for not telling you face to face but in this form, coz u noe i'll cry when i say all this. I dont want to look into your eyes and say all this.

I will be happy for u. You noe i will. Don't think or ponder much about me coz i'll get over this stupid selfishness, jealousness of mine. You noe i will.

Do what you think you should. Do what you think will make you happy. Do what your heart tells you to. I'll be happy when the time has really come. When will that be? I'm waiting. ;p

Went to the Ong Teng Cheong Concert with Yana, vic and mk. The last performance lead by Sheik Haikel was kinda cool with all d rap thingy. Nice~~

Then went to chat at the padang. We chatted and leave before the last train.
Had a great time.

OK~~ i've got lotsa things to write abt here especially abt my life, my work, etc. Juz that those things wont wanna come put from my head at the moment. Juz feeling sick, very sick. Having flu again! not agn.. ergh.. i hate flu. And now it leads to a headache as well..
god.. oh god...

Yesterday, I went to the Army Open House 2004 with mk, vic & danial. Had so much fun playing the games and taking photos there.
Take a look:

I don't care! Am getting this shoe!!!!



Some pix taken with the rest:

chang da, me, yana and 1/2 of jon's face


yana, jon, yumiko and daryl on d phone


daryl, sk, and me


serene neo!


shahidin and me


me, bear and shawn



chang da and me


Mr E.T and me

okies! Yesterday was officially the last day of Streets Alive @ Orchard. I sure will miss all d good, bad, happy and sad moments there.

Went to watch "13 going on 30" in the morning with the following people:
Both serene, jon, shahidin, shawn and not forgetting Yana.
As usual both me and yana were late. HAha.. Thanx to Uncle Kiong for the 4 free passes to watch movie. Nice movie~~ Wanna watch agn.. hmm.. ask Kartini!

Then reach the booth in time~ Yesh!!
And i was happy coz volunteers came. I'm really touched by them. They motivate me to do better.
Thanx to all the volunteers and frens who helped out!
Thanx more to these people below:
1. Jonathan ( my fellow colleague)
2. Serene Koh (my secretary aka powerpuff girls)
3. Yana (my buddy aka powerpuff girls)
4. Serene Neo (my other buddy aka powerpuff girls)
5. Shahidin (Mr Superman and his rank on d shoulder created by ME!)
6. Shawn (Mr scary bear-seller)
7. Daryl (my E.T fren)
8. Yumiko (Take care of yr teeth gal)
9. Chang da (my dear~ haha.. funny guy)
10. Hadi (cute guy)
11. Mun Keat and Mark Lai (for listening to my rubbish in msn)
12. Weng tat (for the food delivered from school!)
13. Of course not forgetting Ms Eugenie!!!
14. All the rest including my teddy bears(Mr Nicholas and Ah pok), the other boys including shuan and vic!

jUS to recap some of the days:
Sunday, 29th Aug 04--> We got a winner for the big "Me to You" bear.
Me, yana, Serene Koh, Jon, Nicholas and John(deejay) went to eat @ the open hawker ctr. Eat lotsa food. John and Nicholas treat us seafood. Thanx!
Was having stomach ache when i was walking home from Marsiling Mrt. Sometimes, i felt unsafe and scared on my way home. The feeling is juz not rite. And the previous day, a grp of INDIAN guys was actually playing with the chinese lady by blocking her way out. I was like "OMG! My legs were wobbling and juz wanna walk back to the station control man.. But lucky for her, me and another person were behind her.. Eventho far..

Today was another fine day. 8 SP vols came. And we saw Ben Yeo.. is dat his name.. i dunno.. watever.. but he's cute! hehe.. pix below:


He's cute.. oredi married and unavailable! shucks..

21/08/04:
Pple @ orchard:
1. me
2. yana
3. serene koh
4. serene neo
5. shahidin
6. maslina
7. masdian
8. shuan
9. mun keat
10. fhairus
11. nicholas

We were having lotsa fun.. doing work but playing as well. Stress free. We sure noe how to enjoy ourselves. David came for a while and i persuaded him to buy a bear for ehemm.. hehe.. he bought! Yeah! And Edwin approached me. Got him to buy a disc. If he got more $ in his wallet, i believe he would buy a bear. Watever it is, really appreciate these 2 guys. ;p

Went to the open hawker ctr with pple from no.2 to no.7 except for no.3. Haha.. wats wif the numbering system. We were having so much fun and not forgetting the longan drink, murtabak and goreng pisang. The finale.. hehe.. finale.. was we were tricked by serene neo that there are fruits on the tree above us. We actually believed her till shahidin told us dat those were balloons. We were laughing our heads off dude!
Coz yana tot it was a peach(fish?), while dian tot it were oranges. Damn hilarious!

On Wednesday, i fell! yes.. i really did.. in front of a customer. haha.. i was standing up from the chair, when i clumsily tripped over the chair legs. Funny.. Ok, SK.. now u happy ah.. i blogged about it. hmmp..

Anyway, in the evening during dat day, kelvin and Mark came. Joanne left after a meeting wif Jon + Mark. Was talking with Mark while Mr kelvin play mobile pet using my phone. Hahaz.. I realised now how much time i really spent with my frens. Had a great time with those guys and met Yana + lala @ orchard mrt. It was yana's convo that day. Surprisingly, she wore green kebaya for her convo. Surprised bcoz she's wearing green too.

Thursday, nothing much happen. Kelvin came agn. He helped us sell d bears but i dun think pple can hear him coz he's in d booth. ;p

Friday, jon left early for cssp ceremony. Only me and sk in the booth and it was raining the whole day. Tat came in d evening. Really appreciate the guys to come down during weekdays after school esp. vic, mk and tat. I noe it muz be tired to come down. Have been tru this during orchard of hope.

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MY CONVOCATION DAY! 16th Aug 04

My off day too...
Went to sch with my parents for this day. Was wearing a bright green baju kurung. To my surprise, lotsa malays were wearing the traditional clothes. Anyway, i tot i was late, but Ms Eve were later than me. As usual yar eve? haha.. Serene woke up late, thus didn't attend the convocation. I was sitting wif Mr Mahfudz aka Mr lasernye mulut nak kena sumbat ngan cili padi. We were practically making fun of pple and ourselves. At least i have someone whom i noe sitting wif me. And surprises strike me twice when i realised i'm the only gal in Internet Computing whose name starts wif 'M'. cOOL?

When i think abt the convo, i find that i miss my sch life afterall. Miss my frens and i was happy that i met them. Weiling was waiting for me and eve after the ceremony @ Jupiter cafe. We reached there too late that she left us. Sadz.. didnt had the opportunity to take a group photo with our certs. Yar.. didn't exactly get my cert(juz the file) coz i owe the school their BELOVED lan card. Aint a prob to me coz my parents would freak out if they saw my grades too.. haha..

Went to eve house. Zemin was with us. Then they accompany me to wdlds. hehe.. After that, met weiling at orchard to watch 'village'. Alot of pple said it wasn't nice but to our pt of view, it was ok~~ Juz that we tot it is a monster or scary movie.
Went to the open hawker ctr nearby and drank longan drink and more longan drink. haha.. Ate goreng pisang.. As usual, we were bitching ard abt customers whom we have handled. Yeah.. we were all in the customer service line. Juz dat i quit not long ago. Talked abt frens, and more frens. Took photos and make a fool out of ourselves. Whenever i'm ard, we will surely make a fool of ourselves.. rite EVe? rite wEILING? haha.. Pple ard us were lookin at our table and we did make ourselves popular dat way..haha.. Saw a caterpillar(haha..i said it was a worm at 1st).. it was hanging near our table and it moved ard our area. U should have seen the look of this lady near us.. She was so disgusted and tryin to make sure that the thing dont get any nearer to her. Eventually, this man pull the web thingy which the caterpillar was holding on to and it dropped on the ground. Our saviour! haha.. but he could have juz burnt the caterpillar with his cigarette butt(or isit bud?). Then the spider will eat a 'chao ta' caterpillar. haha.. i'm so vicious.

Anyway, zemin picked us up except for weiling who says that mrt is much faster. haha.. He sent me home. Was practically dozing off at the back. HAHA.. tHANX eve and weiling for the fun moment and zemin who drove me home. ;p

Pix attached!

OKies.. i really think i've got stomachache!
My mum was so kan chiong for me abt tomorrow's convocation. Coz i was like bo-chap. Heck care attitude. She was practically smiling when i say "No clothes? wear baju kurung ah! Who cares.." She always wan to see her daughters in baju kurung. Oklar.. watever.. haha..

As usual, i went to orchard but left early to watch the fireworks. From a big group, we split up into 2. Me wif yana, fhairus, nicholas and mk. It was like damn near. Cool! I was like 'Aww...' Haha.. And dat fhairus heard from someone that it will be romantic if a couple kiss when there are fireworks. Told him to kiss the guy beside him..hahaz..

Anyway, Tim treated me,yana, nicholas and johan(xtra siak..lol..jk) desserts. We were so damn thirsty. Then i went to apply for the mc donald ezlink thingy. Tim and nick join oso. hAHA.. Yana pemalas.. malas nak tulis. ;p

Then eat RAMLY burger @ esplanade! Sakit perut! Straight away go toilet. Me, yana and jo left the grp and chat somewhere before heading home by 960.

Okies.. dreading to go convocation..sianz..

Finally after holding onto it these few days, it burst out this evening. Can't tahan the tiredness, be it emotionally or physically. Plus not forgetting my stomachache since d last 2 days. Keep going toilet. I can't smile most of the time, maybe bcoz my lip or mouth muscle were numb. Can't care less.

But i was laughing away agn in the late evening when we were crapping. Maybe it's due to the coconut i drank.. Those involved were yana, both serene, jon, and tat. haha.. keep toking abt iPod. Were we horny? Let it be a conversation between only the 6 of us. ;p

Thanx to Mk for the coconut.
Can't wait for tomorrow's fireworks.
tata..

Friday the 13th was juz over 30 mins ago? Is it actually a bad day? I dunno but it is.. for me.
A few unpleasant things happen.. but all were settled eventually. A rough time? yesh.. a lesson to be learnt.

Anyway, still thinking whether i wanna be a psychiatrist or stick to my mobile programming/IT.. who noes after degree can work for NTT Docomo! Aww..
Stress..

Anyway.. in the evening, 2 guys came to hype the atmosphere..yesh! the cuzzins.. Kelvin Watt and Kian Kei.. all the Ks.. Happy birthday to KK. Sweet 16 yar. Nice chap, bought us dark chocoz.. yummy! Thanx!

I was taking photo with the birthday boy when two XTRAZ were posing nicely too. see below.



Finally a nice pix taken(3rd try):



& a grp photo...(dont wanna miss out the xtras!)




CIAOZ..hope can wake up early to send lao da and brudder @ airport.

me and yana @ streets alive





a pix taken by mk using fireworks display settings..cool..





something spoilt the pix.. u saw it? hahaz..





me, eve & serene!

M	Mesmerizing
A	Ambivalent
S	Spiritual
L	Lively
I	Industrious
A	Altruistic
N	Natural
A	Altruistic

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Okies.. finally back in this blog with a new COPIED skin!
Heez..

Update what i did for the last few months yar!
1. Finally graduated from Temasek Poly.
2. Working in Heartware Network.
3. Attended a Commonwealth Youth Seminar. Oops.. haven't give testimonial to Elaine yet..
4. Struggled tru Flushing MAD Day.
5. Now, working on Streets Alive @ Orchard.
6. Finally quit 7-11.. So sad..

Feeling tired, but happy coz i did something i loved to do which is fulfiling in my life. Settling down with work, lots of work, and thinking tru what i wanna do with my life.
Anyway, yesterday was Yana's birthday! Hooray! Eventhough you can watch RA movies, don't watch it till i can watch it yar!
Wanna watch together, so u better wait till my birthday. Don't mind you buying RA movie tix for my birthday tho. Hehe.. Haven't bought u anything, will do so soon coz i'm damn broke @ the moment.
Yesterday had dinner with Raymond and family + heartware key volunteers. Celebrated lao da's and brudder's departure and yana's birthday. We ate at New Park Hotel. Had a nice time coz my table were full of crazy pple not forgetting birdies. haha...

Today, Jon treated me, mk, vic, tat, syahrul Seoul Garden. Thanx Jon! Coz he owe us, "The Hopeless team". Haha..
Dunno how is Muhd doing rite now at Europe. He sure miss the treat dude!

Now, basically updating my life in here. Going to the XBOX Live Launch later.. ;p

Thur Apr 29:
Went to meet Eve, Weiling and Serene to discuss abt the chalet. Met at TM's Starbucks. Had a great time. Then, i went to work agn.

Wed Apr 28:
Did nothing at home. Went to work after that. Worked with Azmi. Then, we went home together. He treat me sweets. Yeah!

Tue Apr 27:
Went for an early breakfast. Then packed our stuff. Got a last minute call abt meeting CM. Finally can meet him. So we wear something nicer and drove off to meet him. They were talking abt the Malacca River. Took photos and left. The guys and me were late. The rest oredi drove off to Singapore by Raymond's car. We were rushing to the hotel and grabbed our bags. Took a cab to the pick up point. I replaced lao da and board the bus. She nd to leave earlier. The guys and me were watching Jackie Chan show in the bus until we slept. After the resting point, they filmed "Running with Karma". Not bad. Went home, bath and slept.

Mon Apr 26:
Had a buffet breakfast and a meeting after that. Ate lunch and went Mahkota agn. Played bowling wif their youths. As usual, mine go longkang. Had a great time. Then we went for dinner at this seafood restaurant with one of the MPs. It was so delicious~. We ate alot sia. We were still eating when their youths already went away and chat. We weren't that starving but ate alot. When we reached the hotel, we went for a meeting. I was practically dozing off while taking notes. Was awaked when i get back to our room and watched Real Madrid vs Barcelona match. Wah.. Figo got double yellow card. Barcelona won.

Apr 25:
Met Elaine at Toa Payoh. Went for Mc Breakfast and see the nation of the fabric b4 meeting boss and family. Reached Malacca juz in time for lunch. Then we went to the hotel to rest. Went window shopping at Mahkota Shopping Ctr. Then went to Jonker. Its something like a pasar malam by the street.

Sat Apr 24:
Din go jogging. Yana woke up late. So we decided to just go for a swim. Guess wat? I forgot to bring my goggles! argh.. i placed it on the table and i forgot to put in my bag. Why am i making a fuss of it? bcoz i cannot see without any help of technology such as lenses! sHUCKS man. But we did have lotsa fun. And as usual i have flu after the swim. Then , yana and me went to Causeway Pt to shop ard. Went to Lay's house to accompany her. Her ex-bf bug her. Dunno y she always have those kinda bf. Hope she realise it and stop having one so soon. She's lonely and can't live without a bf? Pls~~ I have been single my whole life and i don't deny having that feeling BUT its the person itself who has to control its uncontrollable HORMONES! It's not that she shouldn't have 1 but she always have one soon after the other. Don't wanna keep advising her all the time. She has a brain of her own. Its up to her to decide. I'll juz be there when she needs me.

Then, yana and me went to watch 50 1st Dates. The ticketer sold me the wrong timing one. Asked for a 7.30pm show n she gave us 5.30pm show tickets. Idiota! Make a fool out of us. But its gd too coz we were given show house seats which is much much better. Its a funny show. Wanna watch it agn ah..

Friday Apr 23:
Went to work today. Before that, I went to Causeway Pt to pass SK her stuff and went shopping alone. Bought bread from Yakun Kaya Toast. Yummy!! That's my dinner.. Can't wait to go jogging and swimming tomolo morning wif yana and nang. I'm oso excited for the Malacca trip this Sunday. ;p

Thurs Apr 22:
Got stomachache sia. Went to accompany yana to sch. We ate at her school and went Causeway Point. Enjoyed myself. Then, went to work.

Wed Apr 21:
My exam day! Sianz..so difficult.

Tue Apr 20:
Went to school library to study MWSM wif Serene. Then, went to Suntec to eat KFC with Danial, Shuan, Vic, MK, and Tat. Danial treated us coz he's going NS the following day. Enjoyed myself.

Monday Apr 19:
Was at home the whole day. Studying a bit of MWSM.

Somethin dat nang aka stargazer did. Din noe my sista can do this kinda thing.

confuse

i wonder why am i still waiting
in the long queue just to be urs
ive tried so hard to leave the queue
bt its just too hard to bear
i kept thinking
maybe im nt the one for you
i feel like im lana in the smallville show
who loves clark kent too
bt eventually sum1 told her
'dont hold on to those who you love..maybe they arent for you'
i kept thinking abt it..
bt it was no use..
i still love you
as much as i used to
i hope we could be together
like how we are in my dreams
boy,im still waiting for you in my world of fantasies
im willing to wait for you till the day
you found someone new
bt even if we couldnt be together
im certain i cant forget abt you
for ur the first guy that i love so true

Today is a great day. Kak Linda's engagement day. Yan, me and yana went to Busu Kiah's house to make roti kirai. Had fun there. Fetch busu ain at interchange and go back home. Most of my relatives were oredi there. I was like "ARGH!! Haven change.. so rushing lei.." Then i get ready and be the photographer of the day. Hahaz.. Kak Linda is very pretty today. My sisters, yana and me were having a great time joking and laughing in the room. Really hope dat our sistership remains this way. Just sad dat Kak nita wasn't there. It's an incomplete picture. We took some photos by ourselves using timer. We were laughing and laughing while waiting for the snap. Some of the photos are pictures of us laughing. Cannot tahan.. Then, Busu ain gave me Hanuta chocoz... Yummy!! Sadz..he wanna bring me to Indonesia wif granny on first wk of June, but i dun think i can make it bcoz of the Sabah trip. That project wk oso the same, if i got no sch, he would have brought me to Europe. Felt really fortunate to have such a great uncle! Always help us when we r in need. Always think of us b4 himself.

Really enjoyed myself today. ;p

Like this song... ;p

Angels Brought Me Here- Guy Sebastian

It's been a long and winding journey
But im finally here tonight
Picking up the pieces and walking
Back into the light

Into the sunset of the glory
Where my heart and future lies
There's nothing like that feeling
When I look into your eyes

My dreams came true
When I found you,
I found You, my miracal
(chorus)
If u ,could see wat I see
That you're the answer to my prayers
when If you could feel the tenderness I feel
You would know, it would be clear
that the ANGELS BROUGHT ME HERE

Standing here before you
Feels like I've been born again
Every breath is your love
Every heart beat speaks your name

My dreams came true
Right here infront of You
My miracal
(chorus)
Brought me here to be with You
I'll be forever gratefull
Forever faithful
My dreams came true
When I found You
My miracal

(repeat 2x)
If u could see wat I see
You're the answer to my prayers
And if you could feel the tenderness I feel
You would know, it would be clear
That the ANGELS BROUGHT ME HERE

I was late for the DSA event yesterday. Supposed to meet Mark at 6am. I woke up when he called me at 6..haiz.. tu lar.. remember i woke up at 3am.. coz my throat was killing me? then i slept back ard 4 plus.. If i noe.. i dun sleep at all after dat. Reach suntec at 730 instead of 7am. Raymond treated us Mc Breakfast. Save duit aku. Hahaha...
Saw Mr President and Mrs Nathan face to face seh.. I felt so paiseh coz i told the rest not to feel kan chiong b4 they actually arrived. When he arrived, i'm d one kan chiong.. haha... gundu rite? Mr Fujita, Epson big boss, was standing in front of me. Raymond who was beside him shook Mr President's hand and then Mr Fujita. I was practically moving back step by step. I think Mr President muz be wondering why this girl is avoiding him... haha.. I think he wanna shake hand but bcoz i step back away from him, he say "Hello".. haha.. I oso got the chance to pass him the collage from last yr's event. The funny thing is Vic lar.. Mr President wanna shake his hand, instead he ushered them to the photo taking area. Selenges...
haha.. Then i met yana for her medical check-up at Kallang after the event. Went to Bugis. Supposed to watch movie, but 1st 50 dates not out yet.. So, we chat while drinking coffee at Starbucks. We shared 2 slices of cakes, 2 large fries, and 1 new Mc burger, the Chicken fillet. Tok cock all the time. Then, we went window-shopping. Took a bus home.

Today, tiring day seh. Do mobile photo taking for 2 rounds for the event. We finished most of the photos. Left ard 5 photos to be pasted. Great job done guyz!!! ;p
Raymond and family treated me, Shuan, MK, Vic, Tat, and Adek pizzas at pizza hut. Nice.. Celebrate our victory like dat. hahaz.. ;p

Okies....wat the hell am i doing here? Feeling like shit rite now. Nobody to complain to except this place. Only slept for 2 hrs and now i can't even sleep back. I really need my sleep.. but this throat is killing me. Its so SORE. sHITE! errgh.... I think i need to feed this throat with the hershey chocos i bought last 2 days. I noe i'm gonna make it more worse tho..
I guess now is d time to watch happy tree friends new episodes yar... feeling like a sicko rite now.. a real sicko watching a sicko show. It rhymes doesn't it? sicko...

I slept during tutorial yesterday. Was so sick that i can't even concentrate in class. Ms Serene oso join me to zzz. Can see dat she's tired. Sleep until forgot to copy tutorial notes. Diaoz... Then i went to the office for a meeting and a short training abt the mini collage. Went to have dinner wif Vic and Mk. After dat, went home. Watched tv until i slept.

Today, stayed at home. Then accompany mother to old woodlands interchange. While accompanying her, i was oso scouting for the 60 litre back pack. Went to eat lunch. Ate chicken fried rice and air tebu. Nice~~
Still feeling sick rite now. Coughing and flu.. hope i can get well soon..

Yesterday, work wif him again. Johan cycled there and we chatted for a while. Then, Yazid came and talk to Shazwan and me. Crapped alot. He good ah.. off for a mth to concentrate for his exams. He's so gross.. he told us dat one of the days he work sunrise and day. During day, he cannot control his bladder.. and nobody is tending to the store except him. So he took a big gulp cup and ran to the store rm. Store got tv to see whether customers are in d store. So, he quickly pee into the cup. Wah.. gross sia. We laughed like mad. And i was still sneezing since the afternoon. Have the feeling it will last for a few days. Ergh...help me..
Today, went to submit CMSK report in the morning. Ate salad at Jupiter Cafe wif serene. Now in fyp lab, juz met my supervisor and let him see our final project. Watch happytreefriends and oso chatted wif some of my frens. Now going for MWSM tutorial.. Haiz.. nvr do tutorial..

Ah..choo....!!!!!

Went 2 work juz now. Had a fun time working wif Shazwan. He's so funny.. Always happy and making fun of pple. lol.. Like sister, like brother. I was telling him that i can't do sit and reach. He told me that i have long legs.. I'm like "really?" I didn't even realise it.. coz Eve always teased me abt me nearer to the ground than her(meaning short lar) haha..
Then Shazwan and me were practically bitching abt some of our customers. Can't tolerate some of them. Think that they can do watever they want in our store. So wat if u look like a bitch.. i dun care.. wat else offending u.. Sometimes, i felt upset that the youths nowadays have changed alot. There are no longer the youths of our kind. Now, i can only see those sideroads 1... as if they do not care or even thought of their future. I mean.. i do not have the right to talk abt them coz i'm in a state of denial and confusion rite now.. especially abt my future. But at least there is a future appearing in front of me.. Gate by gate, open 1 by 1.. Juz taking a step at a time..

Woke up early in the morning to finish up my APEL Self Reflection. Did for ard 1 hr sia. Thus, late and didn't attend CPDC. Heard that cp was angry wif us as only 3 pple attended. Wat the toot! Can submit the portfolio in his pigeon hole mah. Wah kaoz.. somemore, indirectly scolding us as if we are immature in the email he sent.. I think he is immature.. not us. He wasn't being understanding at all. We still have CMSK to finish ok.. Useless geek. ergh....

Went for lecture today. Then, went for lunch wif Eve and Nad. After that, i finished off my MWSM in one of the secluded labs..NMM lab.. Hengz, not many pple. Else, can't do my work. Haiz.. feeling hungry agn... i'm gonna gain weight agn..

Wanna finish up my CMSK report by tonite and study for my exams le.. And i wanna go swimming!!! wanna learn swimming.. hehe. paiseh lah, dunno how to swim mah.. Who can teach me?

Sunday Apr 11: Now doing my sch work.. Will be working later at 7pm.. Haiz..

Sat Apr 10: Mother went to Johore wif both Mak Long and Mak Long Iis. Not forgetting Ferdah!! Played wif her for awhile before going for CSSP meeting. Was blur-blur.. so paiseh.. Then, went for DSA briefing with the other volunteers. B4 dat, me and Mark went earlier with the guys to take photos of the pple for the mini collage. Went back to office, and was surprised dat Joanne found my collage photo. ThanQ.. She told me on the phone dat she found something dat i want. Haha..
Then went to eat a quick dinner at Mc.. Was rushing because i'll be late for work.. Work alone from 7 to 9.30.. My colleague was late. Traffic jam at custom area.. i think..

Fri Apr 09: Good Friday. Went for YEP team building session at the ALP site in sch. Yana was late, therefore, we bought mc breakfast and ate in d cab. Surprisingly, we were the early ones. Serene woke up late..haha.. think she's very tired after all these projects. Had a great time during the team building session. Then, the 3 of us ate lunch wif Edmund, Joyce and Jason. First time ate at this muslim corner @ telepark. Then, yana came to my house. We watched tv while getting her a new blogskin. Then, off to work. Chatted wif Busu online at nite.. chatted until near 3am.. Wow.. but had a great time chatting coz it has been a long time since i met him. We are so busy wif each other's life. He's going Europe agn this Sunday. If only i have no sch these few days.. He would have brought me along.. hmm..

Thurs Apr 08: Went for MP Presentation. Was damn nervous.. experience the adrenaline rush..haha.. Was so pissed off wif the evaluator. Then, went for motivator's meeting in d evening. Ate KFC wif Yana near my house. We took photos and chatted along the way home. Crazy.. lol.. it has been quite a time since we chatted about our lives.

Wed Apr 07: It was Serene Neo's birthday. Went for CMSK in the morning. Serene, Eve and me ate at Jupiter's Cafe after class. We went to catch a movie "Taking Lives" in d evening with Weiling, her bf, and David as well.

Tuesday Apr 06: Forgot wat i did.. oh yeah.. i went to school do my mp presentation prep. Then, went to meet Mark in d office to briefed him on the aug event so that the guys can brainstorm abt it too. Then, went for DSA meeting wif Shuan and Vic. While waiting for them, i met Danial. Chatted for a while.

I'm very sad rite now. Can't believe that this is happening to me rite now. Can't believe dat pple will backstab me. I knew he is the kind of person but i didn't know that i'll be d victim. My other grpmate dont even noe dat he is talking abt him behind his back. 1 is a HYPOCRITE while d other is a GUNDU! Wat the ****! But i'm glad that i have told my tutor all abt it. Its up to her to believe. Now i noe who to trust and who not to trust. It really hurts me to the core that these kind of pple exists. I dunno how long i cried. Its not because of the project but because of the people involved. I'm juz gonna concentrate on my major project and cmsk rite now. Then i can think of the exams. Hope i can forget abt this matter coz i really can't afford at the moment. Else it will affect my other stuffs. I pray to u god. Let me be strong day by day. I'm only left with 2 weeks. Pls do me a favour..

To my frens who were there when i needed someone, thank you very much. Really appreciate it. I wouldn't noe wat i will do if you weren't there.

Sunday April 4: Stayed at home the whole day to do project. Was stressed coz i couldn't debug some errors.

Sat April 3: Went for mentoring. Wasn't in a gd mood dat time. Maybe bcoz my mentee didn't come. Then, went to work.

Friday April 2: Went to office to print some stuff and went to the Seasons in the sea photography talk. Then watch the movie "Twisted". A good show.. worth my $.. Now continue on my proj.. ciaoz.. ;p

Thurs April 1: Went to recce Suntec exhibition hall regarding the mini collage with Shuan, tat, and boss & family. Have to do preparation for the mini collage. Heard dat we'll be taking up a project in Aug. Went to work after dat.

Wed Mar 31: Didn't go sch. Had a terrible headache. Went to see doc. Doc gave me 3 days mc. Told me to go for a scan if the headache still continues next wk. Sianz.. u think i got $ meh. Then, i went for YEP meeting. Ate dinner wif Yana at Mc. Boss told me that i'll have lotsa things to do after my exams. Muz tell him my yep dates.. else sure clash..hehe

Tuesday Mar 30: Didn't go sch. Did my project at home. Then went to HW office for a CSSP meeting wif the motivators and JM. Had a great time chatting with SK, Elaine, JM and Jon abt blogger during our dinner. We then decided to come out wif our own blog. Check it out! Its called "i have a story".

Monday Mar 29: Can't wake up.. had headache agn. Therefore, i missed my lab agn! Haiz.. Only reach school ard 2pm to do my fyp and meet my supervisor. Then, went to work. Not enuff staff.

Sun Mar 28: Did my project the whole day.

Sat Mar 27: Went to sch wif yana for YEP meeting. Surprisingly, not many attended the meeting. Therefore, it was postponed on d next Wednesday. Went to the lab to continue my proj. Went for mentoring after that. I decided to go to Lay's birthday party and so went to Yana's house first and then to my house to change b4 going to the east agn. Had a great time there. Met my sec sch classmates. Yana slept over my house and i was so tired that i decided to sleep instead of doing my proj.

Friday Mar 26: I went to sch for MWSM lab. Did a bit on MWSM report. After dat, i went to work. Was late again. Haiz.. I was supposed to go to Lay's birthday party chalet wif yana and jo. Jo said that his dad will send us there as me and yana will only be able to go off after work which is ard 11pm. Then, he said dat his family wanna go Changi for supper. So, there will be no space in the car. I decided not to go then since i got no $ to take a cab. I told yana to go tumpang with them instead. In fact, i was feeling uneasy. To go or not to go.. coz i haven't finish my proj.

Farking bitch! u think u own the whole house. I noe u pay for the home bills and all but u don't have the right to bark at pple in d house including mother ok!
I oredi found yr shoes. Wat else u wan? Its not my fault that u din see it. Stupid jabroni. Because of u barking ard that i can't stand it and scold u back. Idiot! And now u threaten me by going to cut the internet line and watever shit. Think u so noble meh. U go get married asap ah gundu. Idiot.. i can't stand it anymore.. u think i llike scolding people? Now mother is so upset because i oso scolded her in d end. Y muz this happen everytime i got fucking projects to finish? i wish i can juz go to another world without any worries and responsiblity to carry. U pple r making me stress and makes my headache more worse. Do u ever think y i always got headaches? NO! I think u rather have me dead than being at home quarrelling wif u! How to respect you when u don't even respect people older than u. Juz get out of the house lar.. We can live without u lar. We can oso pay the bills lar. Father and mother still working lar. And i'm going to graduate soon. Idiot! Yesterday pissed off wif stupid pple who are of different frequencies, now with own family member. Wat a farking morning!

Wed 24th Mar: Surprisingly woked up early and was early for CMSK tut. haha.. very rare... always had to take a cab u noe.. Then, went for MWSM lect. Beginning to like MWSM..haha..crazy.. but its d truth. Went for lunch outside wif serene and the guys in class. Did project, went for tutorials. Went Jupiter Cafe with Eve and Serene. Talk about life.. our sad lives..haiz... Then met Sharifah.. miss her tho..
Then met Ahmad..
Can't wait to finish this project. Left sch ard 830pm.

23rd Mar: Stayed at home d whole day. Do my proj and oso slacking.

Mon 22nd Mar: Went to sch to do project. Skipped lab in d morning. Was very tired to wake up in the morning.

Sun 21st Mar: Serene came over my house to do our proj. I was sick. Had flu d whole day. She left ard 10 plus.

Sat 20th Mar: Went to sch for project. Was late as usual. Serene wait for me in d lab. Then went to work.

Friday 19th Mar: As usual, went to sch for MWSM lab. Nice time chatting wif serene and mr yap abt continuing study after poly. Then went to work.

Thurs 18th Mar: forgot wat i did.. went to johor? In the evening, went to office for the first meeting with the motivators. Had a great meeting. But after the meeting, headache agn..argh... Went to eat at MC wif yana. Met MK and shuan there. They were waiting for us to finish our meeting. Then, went back via the jurong east route agn..haha.. MK accompanied me and Yana tru the route. I think he cannot tahan me coz i actually lose the finger game and supposed to go tru the orchard route. But yana backed me up and won. haha.. funny..
Yana came to my house for a while. She say long time never come..haha.. i think i never go to her house for a very long time.

Wed 17th Mar: Went for CMSK interview test. It wasn't as scary as it seems. Whole day in sch and went to work after dat.

Tue 16th Mar: Supposed to wake up at 9am..but i was so tired and got headache that i juz off my hp alarm clock. Sharon woke me up ard 945am. Rushed to the toilet and bathed. There's another meeting at 10am. Shuan still sleeping. haha.. We waited for the rest of the guys to come. Meeting..meeting..meeting.. Then went to Parkway Parade to continue our discussion while Raymond had lunch appointment. Met him and we went to the office. Did our own work and left to the old office to collect some stuffs. Then went to Shangrila hotel to collect MK's pay. Then, we went to IKEA to buy stuff for the new office. As usual, me like secretary.. have to take note of wat to buy.. diaoz..
Then went to new office agn to put the stuffs we took at old office. Ate pizza. Went home via Jurong route. Haha.. MK no choice.. accompany me using that route.

Monday 15th Mar: Went to sch as usual. Then, me and Serene Neo went for YEP meeting. Long time never see those frens of ours. Had a great time talking and joking. haha..
Then supposed to meet Shuan for a short meeting. It was oredi 8 plus. Then Raymond called and say that he'll attend the meeting too. So, we decided to have the meeting at Raymond's house instead of TM. Made Raymond wait for us for a long time coz we went to buy dinner and his parking coupons first. hehe..
Reached his house ard 9 plus and ended the meeting ard 1 plus. We stayed over his house. My mum was nagging at me as usual.. haha.. but glad that she's understanding. While Raymond went off to bath and sleep, me and Shuan continue on our discussion until 5am. So much thing to discuss yar..
Then, can't take it ..need to slp..off to bed.

Sun 14 Mar: Went to suntec agn. Later than the previous day. hehe.. Went alone coz mk have to work at his new job and tat went to see SH's salad making competition. Left me, vic and Shuan. But we went separately. Shuan look for me during lunch while vic look for me during dinner. haha.. we all ate 1 lvl below the exhibit hall. Everyone stared at us eating.haha..
Sold 11 printers. so happy. Then yana sms-ed me. She's feeling down. I felt sad because i can't call her. Felt guilty oso because i have not been there for her since i'm always busy wif my work... Hope she understands..i noe she will. Hope i can meet her one of these days. Have not seen her since a week ago...

Sat 13 Mar: Become an EPSON promoter @ the IT show. Was a bit late as usual. Met MK as usual. He made me panick by saying later kena scolding lar.. rubbish..haha.. I was stationed away from the guys..boohoo.. Was stationed to promote this particular photo printer @ FujiFilm booth. I tot i'll be all alone by myself.. break oso alone.. but during lunch, mk and vic came to look for me! was so happy to see them coz i was damn bored there. We ate lunch and dinner together. They really noe dat i can't survive alone without frenz.. haha. I din make a lot of new frens at my booth coz most of them were busy promoting their products to hit target. Went to eat ice cream at Mc after the show. Then reach home late seh.. ard 12 plus. So tired but still chat wif raymond regarding the EPSON thingy. Sold 5 printers today.
Managed to sleep on my new bed!! so nice.. but only sleep for a few hours.

Friday 12 Mar: Tot i dun wanna go for NAPFA test.. but eventually i went. I passed all. haha.. so happy. Consider still fit after more than 1/2 a yr of "meditation". hahaz.. But tired seh.

The new office damn nice sia. Very comfy. Wooden floor... really like chalet. Haha.. Raymond said only Joanne Leong and me can study there. No mokeying ard..haha.. Then went to IT show to support the guys. Met Mary, EPSON marketing manager. Then, went to Carrefour to buy office stuff. While buying, Raymond ask me whether i can help EPSON out on weekends. So dat i'll noe more abt EPSON and gain experience too. Since its a gd opportunity, i go for it.

Thur 11 Mar: Now, waiting for Suhana to be online. So i can pass my task to her. Passing Serene Koh's items at Admiralty. Then, maybe going to Chinatown for a while to meet Kak Sharifah and then go for a meeting wif Joanne L there.

Wed 10 Mar: Got menses cramp. Aiyo..bankrupt sia if everytime see doctor.. Doc scold me for not taking gd care of myself.. Coz i rarely had cramps. Its because of stress, lack of sleep lar.. all this crap..dat create the changes in my hormones or something.. then got cramps.. diaoz.. so funny. First time got scolded by a doctor. Haha..

Tue 9 Mar: Hmm..wat i did? Oh.. stayed at home, then went for Motivator's Exco meeting in d evening at Swensens Orchard wif Raymond and d excos.

Mon 8 Mar: Terrible headache, terrible zipdisk. Was unable to pass my completed task to my fyp grp. Wat a damn fucking day it was...Went to see a doctor.. scare the hell outta me! Tell me all abt tension headaches and brain tumor! OH MY GOD! He told me to go for a scan if the headache continues for a few mths.. diaoz..In the evening, went to the Cafe Cartel, TM, to celebrate Eve's birthday. Who was there? Eve, Zemin, Nad, Serene Neo, Weiling, Weiling bf, Zheyu, Alex and me! We had a great time together. Laughing and crapping away like crazy people!

Sun 7 Mar: Finished my part for the week for FYP. Went to meet the 4 guys for an EPSON Mobile Hub meeting to come out wif a timeline and gameplan. I reached Orchard, our meeting point, late. Went to accompany Yana to buy her new Samsung hp b4 meeting them. Then went to Causeway Pt wif Shuan, tat, and Shuhua.
Felt awkward.. If I noe, i dun go.

Sat 6 Mar: Went to Career Exhibition 2004 wif Yana, Lays and Jo. It has been a long time since we went out together. So happy. Had a great time there. I took them to d Esplanade to see the World Photo Collage. Got our photos except for Jo. Then we took photos, crap and tok alot outside Esplanade.

Friday 5 Mar: Still got headache. Went to sch for MWSM lab. Then, Shuan wasn't ready and so me decided to buy food wif Eve and Nad. Then, when he's ready.. i'm like far from my lab.. diaoz.. tired to rush back to my lab and take my bag. We were late for the party. We went to buy cake and wrap his present for SH. The present is nice. so sweet~~ of him. lol.. We were supposed to reach by 7 but reach there at 730pm. We were looking for the block high and low sia.. Then, we saw boss's car at the carpark entrance. We chiong looking for her house..haha.. At least we reach b4 them. When we reached there, the rest was saying "girls sit 1 side, guys sit 1 side"..They were teasing boss actually... Then, Sk and tat were sitting wif a gap between. wah kaoz.. purposely wanna suan boss. I was sitting wif MK at a 2 seater sofa then..She was looking at us and hinting that we should have a gap or something.. Diaoz..no freedom like dat.. then, i purposely sit closer and closer to MK. haha.. every1 was laughing except MR and MRS R. They din noe wat we were laughing abt. Then MK play along.. put out his hand around my shoulder.. but on d sofa lar.. not on my shoulder. haha... i think the rest cannot tahan us. MK was saying dat if danial was here.. i would be sitting between them..and both would raise their hands together..and the armpit story would rise..haha.. Boss and wife left early and the rest played mah jong, watched tv and chat. We left her house at 1045pm. So late le. Then, Shuan accompanied me to wdlds int by taking 962 wif me. He can take mrt to Yishun and board 969..instead he took 962 to wdld and 168 from there. At least can chat bah.. i see dat he was happy actually.. haha.. May his project SH works.. haha..


Thur 4 Mar: Still headache. Didn't go for Mad Hair meeting coz Joanne L say no need. haha.. actually had to. MK went for the meeting and he realised dat he shouldn't be there at all. No connection wif wat he is doing. I met Shuan at Redhill. Supposed to meet yana!! but then coz of chingay cds.. decided to help the guys..But vic's mother was coming back home soon and vic was finishing it too. Eventually decided to all meet at redhill. Mk wanted to meet us and so he look for us there after the meeting. Shuan was making my headache worse wif his "MAS~~~~~"..aiyo.. can't tahan! Shuan and me were looking for an atm machine ard the area while waiting for the rest. It was a funny incident. We were all hungry. When all were there, we went to Fort Canning Park to look for saga seeds. Shuan wanted to give it as a present to SH. haha.. so sweet~~. Then, ate at MC @ PS. Then, we look for a container. Dunno which 1 to choose.. aiyo.. then Raymond called us regarding the party. Haha.. another issue agn. Long story..so decided not to jot abt it here.

Wed 3 Mar: Had a terrible headache in the morning and so i decided to skip CMSK and lect. Then i tot MWSM tut is at 2pm.. actually it was at 1pm. Diaoz.. Didn't go oso. So, i went to sch for my FYP project only. Then went to work after that.

Tuesday 2 Mar: Did my MBDP project and went for evaluation in d afternoon. After that, i went to Yishun and meet tat and Syahrul for a while and see wat present tat bought for SH. Then, i rushed to Sembawang to collect my specs then to Bukit Batok. Met Shuan there and went to Commonwealth for a talk abt network marketing. Haha.. Shuan was saying " Mas.. wat have u brought me into??" haha..

Monday 1 Mar: Wat did i do then... Was in school the whole day. Was actually pissed of wif 1 of my elective team member. Dun wanna mention who. Lotsa stuff happened. Then,met Shuan and MK in school. Went Tampines Mall with them for a while.Then Shuan went to his grandma house while me and MK ate at old Mc. Saw Yingwei there and she tot we were a couple. Hahaha.. u should have seen her look then. Mk was saying that " i think your fren thinks we r a couple.." haha... Then took mrt to work..juz to accompany this munkey. The journey took 1 1/2 hrs. I was late and guess wat.. i forgot to wear long pants, it was raining heavily and i've got no umbrella! Walk asap home and change. Was late to work for 1/2 hr.

Sunday 29 Feb: Was at home the whole day. MK, Shuan and Vic went to the bus to take photographs of the DIVA LA FOOTBALL clinic while SK, Tat, SH, and BT went to Sembawang..kai kai.. MK and Shuan tot that I'll follow the rest to Sembawang. Keep asking me where i go.. Diaoz..

Today going to ite dover open house with the rest of the mentoring team. I'm still not prepared yet. Still haven't bath..haha.. late as usual bah. Actually i dun feel like going but yana and jo forced me to. yEAH! U read it correctly, FORCED! haha.. just joking lar. I've got lotsa stuffs which i haven start and need to be complete by tonight. Haiz.. Masliana..pls change yr attitude.. u lazy bum.. How to graduate like dat? I dunno lar.. Dun feel like doing anything at all. I hope i can get away from those pple who r not studying at the moment. Maybe, being wif these pple for so long, makes me lazy coz they r not studying while i'm studying. I shouldn't go out wif them when they ask me out. Yes! I think i should do dat! Dun go out wif them. Who am i kiddin? Myself? haiz.. watever.. toking crap here..

25th Feb: Wat did i do? orh.. Was shocked dat i had to attend the same meeting as d 4 guys. I was even laughing at them when i saw the sms on mk's phone. Sekali, i oso received d sms on d same day as them, 24th feb. Sianz..nak tak nak..turun jugak. Met mk at amk but as usual i'm late. Anyway, we reached at 1215 when we were supposed to reach at 12noon. Boss was oredi there. Saw me and mk walkin together.. i think he look at us differently then. Was i over-reacting? Y shouldn't i rite..when he kept emphasising not to have relationships between volunteers and oso not to go out alone wif guys or alone wif a guy. Anyway, didn't bother much lar. We were earlier than d rest. So, me accompany mk buy drinks for boss and the rest. He got backache agn. So stubborn.. told him to see doc. Then, meeting starts when all were there but always interrupted by Elijah's cries. Then, i stayed for another meeting wif tkgs gals, joanne L and kak sharifah regarding mad hair raising day 2. The guys and SK went shopping for MK's shoes. Me went to work after dat. Supposed to help boss clean his office at tanglin hq but scared not enuff time. haha..

26th Feb: Was doing sch work the whole morning and early afternoon. So sianz. Asked the guys out to watch movie. All say no $ except for Shuan. So, we went to watch Cold Mountain at Causeway Pt. Haha..he has to travel all d way to wdlds from Tampines. Ate at Long John Silver first, then watch movie at 7pm. We were rushin to the toilet b4 and after the movie. So funny. After that, we went outside Civic Ctre and chat. Then, he decided to buy food agn. Haha.. he ate Long John Silver, then popcorn.. then Bk. Coz other shops close le. He eat so much but still dat small size.

27th Feb: Was sick in d morning, so didn't go school. I broke my specs today. Rushed to the specs shop. Decided to buy a new pair of nerdy specs for outside while get a new frame for this old lenses to use at home. Total cost :$150. Considered my degree is very high, i think the price is ok lar. Then met Yana and Kak ina at Causeway pt. Chat and went shopping with them for a while. Then, now at home chatting. Gonna continue work le. Bye...

On 20th and 21st Feb, I went for a Heartcore Camp. The camp was great eventhough the groups are small. It was even more happening when the guys come down. We really entertained the campers during the campfire. Received feedback from the campers that eventhough it was a fake campfire, it was really fun coz of the facilitators. Haha.. i think its bcoz me and guys are so crazy. We dance during some intervals.. Then, we got friendship dance. Funny.. dat mk dunno how to dance, muz teach him. Lucky the rest noe how to dance. He really kena deprived of childhood sia. Then, the guys saboh me.. finale is my dragon dance.. wah kaoz.. cannot tahan seh.. so paiseh. I only did the saturday nite fever dance. Victor very sweet and sporting coz he joined me.
At nite, i went to d hall wif lao da to look for my collage photo coz d guys saw mine when they were re-pasting some of the photos. At last i found it..haha.. Previously, i went wif muhd to look for the photos but cannot find. So many photos leh.
The guys were not supposed to stay, so they went back. Sekali, si Shuan and Victor came back coz no more transport le. So, they overnite wif us. Me, Victor and Shuan didn't sleep all nite talking abt lotsa stuffs especially abt Pangster. haha.. Got 1 time, muhd join in d conver and there's a cockroach which crawled on him. U should have seen Victor's reaction. He is afraid of cockroach and is so disgusted wif it even if it's not on him. The cockroach incident really woke the others up wif the screamings. Me, Vic and Shuan were so tired in d morning. The 3 of us nvr sleep at all mah. I accidentally slept when Raymond was briefing the campers. I left the camp ard 1 hr earlier for mentoring. Kak siti came and she treat me, yana and johan coffeebean. So sweet.. we talk alot.

22nd Feb: Supposed to spend the whole day at home but went out wif sk, tat, vic and gf, mk, shuan, shuhua, yvonne. They met earlier except me and vic & gf. They met yumiko and bro too. So when all of us are there, we took neoprints. So funny.. Then Yumiko and bro left and Shuhua & Yvonne went home. The rest went to eat dinner and go esplanade to take photos. Vic brought his camera. The photos are nice. Slept late..ard 3 plus. Raymond saw me online and told me to go meeting at 10am. Alamak.. tell me at 3am.. Where got time to sleep sia..

23rd feb: Went to d bus for meeting. Joanne laughed at me becoz of raymond asking me to come down. Ruiwen and Eugene oso. Haiz.. can't tahan them. Then hitch a ride from Raymond to Novena Square. Actually, he wants to send me there and take mrt there. Go sch from novena or somerset nearer? Haiz..
After sch, went ktv wif mk, vic, shuan, tat, sk and muhd. They reached earlier. Me and muhd were late. Me wif sch while he was busy at the bus. Had a great time there. Then, went to work. Had a great time there too wif kak wati, new shift manager.

24th Feb: Today! Went to Orchard lib to return books. Then, went to d bus to return tim's laptop. MK accompanied me. We had lunch at Long John Silver @ Cineleisure. From there, we went to vic's house. Me, mk, vic and Shuan played xbox at vic's house. After that, went to Syahrul's mum stall to eat chicken rice. Went to queensway shopping ctr to look for mk's new shoes. All expensive. So decided not to buy. Took mrt back home. Now blogging and chatting lar. Got to do my work oredi. Need to submit the debrief notes on the 25th... consider the time now.. submission date is today! argh.. better do.. or chief nagger will nag and pester me. haha.. ;p

Now listening to Hao Xin Feng Shou song while browsing tru Friendster...

Saw his pictures again.. feel so sad...feel like crying agn..no...Still trying hard to get him out of my head. Oh god! Pls help me lessen this burden.. will ya? He's a nice guy.. too good for me le..I still remember that nad and serene say something like.. maybe i din actually like him.. i like someone else... or maybe someone else like me instead of him... argh.. dun wanna tok abt him but ...

OKies.. some changes with the Ite guys that me and Danial realise:
1. Victor- more crappy, more pervert and lame!
2. Mun Keat- more open, noes how to play ard oredi.. designer mah..lolx
3. Weng Tat- still the same.. as lazy as ever...haha...
4. Shuan- hmm.. Find that he gets irritated easily nowadays. Like easy to flare up oredi.. Maybe becoz of her...

18th Feb: Had an open book test. Ok lar..can still do. Hope i can pass this test coz d previous 1 sure condemned. After that, my fyp group met our evaluator. She's not as wat i expected. Tot she's d strict type but actually she is a nice lecturer. Told our group a lot of important information dat could add up points for our project. Then, we bump into Ricky at Century Square. So, we decided to chill out at the old McDonalds. Talk alot of stuff. Had a great time there.

19th Feb: Went to Sembawang Sun Plaza wif Sk and Tat. Bought the items needed for the camp. Then, ate at Cavana b4 going Canberra. Met Shuhua at Canberra. After slacking at Heartcore Room for a while, the 4 of us went Somerset. I had to go coz i got an appointment with Joanne L but the rest went to take neoprint. Haha.. Eventually, i had to halt my meeting with Joanne L and take photo in the middle of the meeting period. So funny.. u should have seen the photos. Then, continue on d meeting. After our meeting, they got another meeting for CSSP. Decided not to stay and left. Went to meet Yana and her goodfren, Fazilah, at Far East. Had a great time with them. End up, me and Fazilah bought stuffs instead of Yana.

Today: Have to go for a Heartcore Camp. Apparently, i haven't pack my stuff yet. I'm left with 1 more hr b4 rushing out of the house. Shit.. Haven't return tim's laptop.. die ah.. muz return asap but i haven't finish the volunteers' update yet..

Things to do when i get back from camp:
1. Update the class and school for the volunteers
2. Update the list for 14th and 15th Feb
3. Check again whether i have done any blunders..
4. Do d debrief notes b4 Raymond nags or tell chief nagger(Joanne L) to nag at me!
5. Return Tim's laptop on Monday.

okies.. updates:

13th Feb: Met Serene Neo to deliver the flowers. We went to Admiralty first then to Chinatown. Very funny!! We lost our way in Chinatown. Dunno where the recipient is sia.. in the end took a cab and u noe wat? the recipient on leave!! We were like diaoz... haha.. then ate lunch at Banquet, ChinaSquare. Serene was sweet. Gave me a flower. hahaha.. Then, i went to d park as usual...

14th Feb: It's V- Day. Went for early lunch wif yana first b4 going for mentoring. Then i left earlier to meet SK at Canberra. Took a cab to the park. SK tot she lost her phone. Everyone panicked. In the end, its actually at Heartcore Rm in Canberra. Hahaz.. Anyway, she was sweet.. gave me a card- heartshaped with white angelic wings. Then, Jonathan gave a heart balloon bouquet while Benjamin gave me a red rose. Appreciate that the guys gave me this kinda stuff but i find it a nuisance. Coz when i'm in the mrt, pple were looking at me. I'm like "shit.. get me home asap man".. nobody will give me this kinda stuff mah..
There was an incident at the park. A bangladesh worker got punched by a co-worker. Nose bleed badly. Ambulance and police came. Police asked me and Jonathan lotsa qns. Overall, a happy day.

15th Feb: Last day of Ochard of Hope event. Reach the park ard 5 plus. Studying and packing the stuffs at the park. Was a bit unhappy wif some of the guys coz they were chatting downstairs when there r lotsa things needed to be done upstairs. Raymond keep asking me what they r doing. Really felt squashed. But then, everything settled. We had a happy day. Will miss these days at the park.

16th Feb: Sure fail mwsm. Din study much. D paper is so easy yet i dun even noe how to do. Muz do better for the next paper on Wed. Went for final debrief at NYC wif the guys and Raymond. Need to finish up the debrief notes soon. Went for dinner at Monkeys Cafe. Surprisingly, I was wearing a monkey tee. Haha.. and Mk was there.. alive monkey. haha..
Had a funny time there. Elijah was very cute. Feel like pinching his cheeks. Then, went to Borders wif the guys except ben and Muhd. Reading mags.. Then, went home.. the guys keep asking me to bring the big gold coin home..haha...how to roll sia.. As usual, mk and danial keep humouring me wif the armpit thingy.. Gosh..sometimes can't stand them.

17th Feb: Stayed at home all day. Did nothing much. Changed the blogger layout. Nice? got it from blogskins..
okies.. gtg.. ;p

Haha.. got this quiz tru nad's blog..




Which Royalty Are You? Find out! By Nishi.


You are a Queen!
Beautiful, Wise, Strong
Righteous, Commanding, Humble


You are the beautiful and compassionate Queen. You are the epitomy of what every woman should be. You are confident, bold, aggressive, smart, womanly and feminine. You know the right thing to do and do it. You command respect and earn praise. You are moral and loving. In times of trouble, you draw strength from within, and are a source of strength for others.

Left 4 more days to d end of Orchard of Hope event. Will miss the laughter that we had. 1 girl and 8 guys. We r like 1 big happy family. Hope we will still keep in contact.. watch movie, go out together. Never had so much fun in an event. Anyway, i hope dat we are able to raise more funds within these few days.

Supposed to meet my evaluator today. Suddenly, she said that its too short for 1/2 hr for a meeting. Haiz.. waste my trip to sch. Can go bank early leh.
Later meeting Mk @ Somerset to UOB Bank to bank in d donation $. Then going to the park to finish my unfinished work there. ciaoz... ;p

Yesterday, i went to watch the movie "Torque" with Danial, Mk, Shuan, Weng tat and Syahrul. We went to watch the morning show at Lido. So funny.. tat and syahrul went in first while danial, shuan and me went to buy food while mk accompanied us. Damn slow sia my food. Then when we get into the cinema, its oredi dark ah. Lucky the show hasn't start then. Everything was ok at d park. Sometimes funny coz MK will do the "Hail Mas" like the one done in Hitler. Everybody follow. lol.. They are damn funny. At nite, tired.. cannot take it.. the debrief was so long..Then i met yana and lays at sembawang mrt.. decided to alight wif yana at admiralty. Told her every single detail abt that guy and d conver we had. She was there by my side while i was crying. She said this is serious.. and i have grown up. Dunno wat she meant but i noe dat watever she says always make sense. She let me cry and cry and cry.
Yana sent me an sms which i think is meaningful:
i dun tink i really help dat much..but like wat u said to me once.. no one can help u but u urself can..still rem? so i juz pray dat u'll be strong.. if yr fate is wif him it will be, if not den let it go.. no use hang it on further. Most impt is to love urself 1st b4 anyone else..
Thank u yana! I'm trying my best rite now.
I'm such a loser..juz wanna live my life.. get out of my head pls......

Aku sedih.. sangat sedih. Ternyata, dia suka orang lain. Asal aku tulis dlm bahasa melayu..entah lah. Dia bilang dia suka salah satu sukarelawannye. I knew who it was.. i guessed it correctly. I noticed it. I cried when i got to noe abt it. I was damn sad. This is d first time i ever cried after knowing abt this kinda thing. Lucky, he told me tru online chat. Dia kata " U really noe me damn well". Of course lar.. asal dia selenge sangat. Sekarang, aku dah tahu yg dia suka orang lain.. I better move on wif my life. But he telling me all this means he really trust me and treat me as a buddy. So, i'll juz cherish it dat way and remember all d great things we have done together.

5/2:
Was busy at d park with the volunteers there. Then rush to sch for captain's ball but was late, so i didn't play. I think the guys are angry or something. But i couldn't care less abt all this. My mind is full of stuff. dunno wat i'm toking. In short, i am stress.
Then, i went back to the park. Had a great time there especially with Shuan and Mk. One is obsessed with the amt of $ collected for d day while d other is obsessed with getting a new phone on d next day. They r so funny. Raymond wants me to go to d bank d next day. So i brought the donation $ home.
Chat with Joanne L and Raymond. Raymond was asking me whether i wanna join them for mobile bus and other heartware events after graduation since i had a great time working with the ITE guys. They will be helping out in the mobile bus thingy with Epson. Raymond told me that he can get me to work with Epson too.
Then, he asked me whether i am interested to take over Vincent for chairmanship of Heartware Motivators. I was surprised and scared as it is a heavy responsibility. Told him that i'll think abt it. Joanne L encouraged me to join. They were saying that they will be helping me. I'm not sure. Still deciding. Dunno got the time anot. Still asking for pple's opinion. Wat do u all think? Yana? Nad? Eve? Me in a dilemma.

today:
Went to the bank today. Supposed to meet Shuan and go together. Guess he's tired. So, i went alone. Now me in fyp lab with my grp mates. Meeting my evaluator later. Sucks man..dun really like her.
okies.. adios... call me when u pple need a listening ear.. ..call me when u have time pple! u noe who u r lar... ;p

2/2:
Went to the park agn. Wat did i do over there.. hmm.. usual stuff. make sure the park is in order. Taught shuan and benjamin how to handle fundraising part. Was a but pissed off with Benjamin coz i felt he was being sarcastic. But nonetheless, i tried not to throw my temper. I was very worried abt the Fundraising part coz Shuan has to be clear and understands the method and concept. So, decided not to go for lect d following day. At nite, chat wif Raymond abt the FAQ. He suddenly wants us to add motivators. At such a short notice, i find that it is a bit late but no choice lar, boss say muz include means include lor.

3/2:
Went to watch morning show "The last Samurai" with MK and SK. So funny. I didn't noe dat sk wans to meet mk first to buy tickets. But on the other hand, me and mk oredi decided to meet at amk mrt platform. So, i was late, mk will be late too lar. Then sk got to noe me meet mk.. she was like " u idiot!!" haha.. so funny.. Met her at dhoby ghaut.. can't take it .. laugh all the way to PS. Not a lot of pple watch this morning show lar. So, we move from the back seat to the front seat. Dat sk go and push me.. i spilled my popcorns.. haiz..wasted u noe(giggling).. I find dat only me and sk were laughing whenever got funny scenes. The rest was like dead sia. Lucky sk go, or else i oso dead bored. Mk sometimes laugh but not that often. So, whoever go watch movie wif him alone..sure bored...haha..bad rite.. but he's a nice, sweet bro.. Muz find a nice girl for him since he is building a portfolio for me to go hougang chalet. ;p

today, i received my birthday present from eve, serene, weiling and mad. They bought for me 2 Hanes shirt. Haha.. so sweet.. i actually wanted to buy.. lucky din buy.. Thanx dudes! ;p
off i go for my tutorial.. buaiz~~

Today is a public holiday!! haha.. Selamat Hari Raya Haji..

29/1:
Me and my Orchard of Hope guys work late till 2.30am at d park juz 2 finish up d motivators tags. I was glad that my guys didn't complain coz after all.. orchard of hope guys were not supposed to do chingay stuffs. MK was very sweet.. we took a cab together and he send me to woodlands b4 going home to AMK which is nearer to Orchard. Thanx MK! I owe u chocolates..haha...
30/1:
Chingay Preview- Was very kan chiong wif Chingay coz i scared i'll blunder. Luckily, everything goes well with the help of my SRJC EXCOs( Patricia, Alvin and Hong xiang). Can't blame me for being nervous lah.. coz this is d first time i have to handle over 150 motivators on a sector alone. Being a chief motivator is not an easy task i can say. Summore, i have to run from one end of d sector to another. Tired leh.. But i wasn't really happy coz my Orchard of Hope guys were running ard helping Chingay when they weren't supposed to. Imagine them staying late on d previous day and then reach d park earlier on d next day. Then they have to run ard helping on d chingay stuffs. They were pissed off.
31/1:
Actual Chingay- I was having a great time coz d public r more onz. As usual i have to make sure my motivators r doing a good job. My feet hurts a lot. Got blisters.. but its all worth it. I had cramps in the early afternoon..so i popped a panadol after munching a few fries. Then, i went to treat my Orchard of Hope guys coffee bean drinks. So, basically d stuff i ate was juz a few fries and a panadol, and coffee. Then the running ard at my sector make me so exhausted, not forgetting the cramps. I think i can't take it till i blackout. Luckily i was squatting down. I was so scared dat i'll faint. Coz i can't.. i'm d only 1 wif walkie-talkie for my sector.. I'm d only chief for my sector. I prayed and prayed. Lucky i din faint.. jus rest for ard 5 to 10 mins. Then, off i went for running agn. Hengz.. And i was happy coz the Orchard of Hope guys r happy. Basically, they weren't running errands for Chingay. Luv my sector 3. I tot they will kinda hate me after all d screams, yells i did 2 them. haha.. But it turn out they weren't when they clap, shouted and scream the loudest for me when Justin thank Sector 3 chief motivator..haha.. I'm so touched! Reached home late agn like d other few days.

1/2:
Slept till noon. Then watch tv, wash d clothes.. Went Jurong Pt wif yana and nang. Had a great time window shopping and oso taking neo prints. Then, sat at Coffee bean for coffee. Waited for Yan while drinking coffee. Haha.. we were crapping all d time from the time we met till the time we say good bye. This is d only day i'm able to de-stress myself. Thanx Yana! ;p

oklar.. off i go to d park agn. Cheers! ;p

I'm now in my FYP lab accompanying Serene. She wanna print notes.. so here i am updating on my boring, not romantic life. Had an ok weekend. Nothing much happened. Went back to sch to do project with Zhihong and Ricky. It was raining heavily and Zhihong's umbrella was spoiled.. haha.. u should have seen during that time.. so funny!! Then met Shuan at Tampines interchange and go to the park together. Reached early at d park, so we decided to eat at BK. After that, things are normal.. juz like d rest of the days spent in the park.
Yesterday, a bit funny lar.. coz i went to the park wif MK.. I was late.. supposed to meet him at amk mrt station at 130pm but i forgot to take HW umbrella i borrowed on d previous day. So my time was wasted on going back home. Then we went to the park, something dangerous happened. A few tree branches fell in front of us! OMG! i tell u.. if we reached a min earlier.. we'll oredi have concussion rite now and i'll not be updating u pple abt my life. The tree branches is not those thin 1s ok.. its d thick 1s. Then that stupid MK open d umbrella (remember i have to return the HW umbrella?), then we walk at dat area with the umbrella above us so as to protect us lar. Damn funny ah dat guy! The rest of d guys who have reached earlier.. laughed at us. And dat stupid Danial says dat i should have been hit by that branches.. haha.. coz i'm labeled as CRAzY by them. ok lar.. gtg for my lecture le.. buaiz!! ;p

I'm so so in love wif a guy.. haha.. sounds desperate yar. But i'm serious.. i tot it was juz a crush BUT no.. shit man.. i'm in deep trouble. How can i like this guy? Not dat i shouldn't after all d nice things he has done for me and oso others. But he's too good to be true. Its not about looks but the chemistry. I juz feel so comfy beside him. I feel secure whenever he's beside me eventhough he's doing nothing at all. I like d way he cheer me up. So. do i really like him or wat? Confused and hope i din make it obvious to him dat i really like him. I dun wanna hear from him about how he feels about me whether its good or not. I'm afraid of.. *REJECTION*. Maybe it will be better this way. Not knowing how he feels about me. I think i should change this blog to "my confused life". sigh...

Yoohoo! long time nvr blog in here. Should be ard 1 mth plus liao. Some updates:

December:
- busy helping out at Konica Minolta Celebration Tree organised by Heartware Network @ Orchard Park
- met a lot of new frens there especially 4 of the asylums! and not forgetting the SRJC Excos
- had a lot of fun but tiring ah.. everytime go back at wat time sia.. 11 plus u noe!
- my birthday! my frens there are so sweet.. they bought for me a crumpler pouch which i was eyeing for dunno how long. Thanx dudes!
-yana bought me a ADIDAS watch. woohoo.. its so sweet of her.. its so nice u noe.., jo and lays bought for me a Converse sling bag. nice 2!! Thanx!!
- watch LOTR3 on Christmas morning after the countdown( 2 to 5.30am).. lucky i din slp.. haha.. my Legolas..

Now:
- helping agn at the Orchard Park.. Orchard of Hope.. for another mth or so
- will be with 7 other guys in d org which inc: Mohd, Daniel, Syahrul and the asylum: Victor, Mun Keat, Shuan & Weng Tat
- Will have a great time and fun working wif these crazy guys!
- Will oso be in Motivators for Chingay tru Heartware. Will be 1 of the Chief Motivators.. haha.. dunno wat i'm supposed 2 do actually.
- Busy wif FYP.. so excited eventhough its gonna be stressful.. Looking forward to finish up this proj coz the proposal was damn good.. all thanx to Serene Neo's idea. ;p

Currently:
- Updating u pple out there abt my life at this moment
- In the FYP lab with Serene Neo
- Going off soon to meet Busu.. at his house to pass this particular CD he needs to use
- Then going to the park agn..

okies.. adios!! ;p