Finally after holding onto it these few days, it burst out this evening. Can't tahan the tiredness, be it emotionally or physically. Plus not forgetting my stomachache since d last 2 days. Keep going toilet. I can't smile most of the time, maybe bcoz my lip or mouth muscle were numb. Can't care less.

But i was laughing away agn in the late evening when we were crapping. Maybe it's due to the coconut i drank.. Those involved were yana, both serene, jon, and tat. haha.. keep toking abt iPod. Were we horny? Let it be a conversation between only the 6 of us. ;p

Thanx to Mk for the coconut.
Can't wait for tomorrow's fireworks.
tata..

Friday the 13th was juz over 30 mins ago? Is it actually a bad day? I dunno but it is.. for me.
A few unpleasant things happen.. but all were settled eventually. A rough time? yesh.. a lesson to be learnt.

Anyway, still thinking whether i wanna be a psychiatrist or stick to my mobile programming/IT.. who noes after degree can work for NTT Docomo! Aww..
Stress..

Anyway.. in the evening, 2 guys came to hype the atmosphere..yesh! the cuzzins.. Kelvin Watt and Kian Kei.. all the Ks.. Happy birthday to KK. Sweet 16 yar. Nice chap, bought us dark chocoz.. yummy! Thanx!

I was taking photo with the birthday boy when two XTRAZ were posing nicely too. see below.



Finally a nice pix taken(3rd try):



& a grp photo...(dont wanna miss out the xtras!)




CIAOZ..hope can wake up early to send lao da and brudder @ airport.

me and yana @ streets alive





a pix taken by mk using fireworks display settings..cool..





something spoilt the pix.. u saw it? hahaz..





me, eve & serene!

M	Mesmerizing
A	Ambivalent
S	Spiritual
L	Lively
I	Industrious
A	Altruistic
N	Natural
A	Altruistic

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Okies.. finally back in this blog with a new COPIED skin!
Heez..

Update what i did for the last few months yar!
1. Finally graduated from Temasek Poly.
2. Working in Heartware Network.
3. Attended a Commonwealth Youth Seminar. Oops.. haven't give testimonial to Elaine yet..
4. Struggled tru Flushing MAD Day.
5. Now, working on Streets Alive @ Orchard.
6. Finally quit 7-11.. So sad..

Feeling tired, but happy coz i did something i loved to do which is fulfiling in my life. Settling down with work, lots of work, and thinking tru what i wanna do with my life.
Anyway, yesterday was Yana's birthday! Hooray! Eventhough you can watch RA movies, don't watch it till i can watch it yar!
Wanna watch together, so u better wait till my birthday. Don't mind you buying RA movie tix for my birthday tho. Hehe.. Haven't bought u anything, will do so soon coz i'm damn broke @ the moment.
Yesterday had dinner with Raymond and family + heartware key volunteers. Celebrated lao da's and brudder's departure and yana's birthday. We ate at New Park Hotel. Had a nice time coz my table were full of crazy pple not forgetting birdies. haha...

Today, Jon treated me, mk, vic, tat, syahrul Seoul Garden. Thanx Jon! Coz he owe us, "The Hopeless team". Haha..
Dunno how is Muhd doing rite now at Europe. He sure miss the treat dude!

Now, basically updating my life in here. Going to the XBOX Live Launch later.. ;p

Thur Apr 29:
Went to meet Eve, Weiling and Serene to discuss abt the chalet. Met at TM's Starbucks. Had a great time. Then, i went to work agn.

Wed Apr 28:
Did nothing at home. Went to work after that. Worked with Azmi. Then, we went home together. He treat me sweets. Yeah!

Tue Apr 27:
Went for an early breakfast. Then packed our stuff. Got a last minute call abt meeting CM. Finally can meet him. So we wear something nicer and drove off to meet him. They were talking abt the Malacca River. Took photos and left. The guys and me were late. The rest oredi drove off to Singapore by Raymond's car. We were rushing to the hotel and grabbed our bags. Took a cab to the pick up point. I replaced lao da and board the bus. She nd to leave earlier. The guys and me were watching Jackie Chan show in the bus until we slept. After the resting point, they filmed "Running with Karma". Not bad. Went home, bath and slept.

Mon Apr 26:
Had a buffet breakfast and a meeting after that. Ate lunch and went Mahkota agn. Played bowling wif their youths. As usual, mine go longkang. Had a great time. Then we went for dinner at this seafood restaurant with one of the MPs. It was so delicious~. We ate alot sia. We were still eating when their youths already went away and chat. We weren't that starving but ate alot. When we reached the hotel, we went for a meeting. I was practically dozing off while taking notes. Was awaked when i get back to our room and watched Real Madrid vs Barcelona match. Wah.. Figo got double yellow card. Barcelona won.

Apr 25:
Met Elaine at Toa Payoh. Went for Mc Breakfast and see the nation of the fabric b4 meeting boss and family. Reached Malacca juz in time for lunch. Then we went to the hotel to rest. Went window shopping at Mahkota Shopping Ctr. Then went to Jonker. Its something like a pasar malam by the street.

Sat Apr 24:
Din go jogging. Yana woke up late. So we decided to just go for a swim. Guess wat? I forgot to bring my goggles! argh.. i placed it on the table and i forgot to put in my bag. Why am i making a fuss of it? bcoz i cannot see without any help of technology such as lenses! sHUCKS man. But we did have lotsa fun. And as usual i have flu after the swim. Then , yana and me went to Causeway Pt to shop ard. Went to Lay's house to accompany her. Her ex-bf bug her. Dunno y she always have those kinda bf. Hope she realise it and stop having one so soon. She's lonely and can't live without a bf? Pls~~ I have been single my whole life and i don't deny having that feeling BUT its the person itself who has to control its uncontrollable HORMONES! It's not that she shouldn't have 1 but she always have one soon after the other. Don't wanna keep advising her all the time. She has a brain of her own. Its up to her to decide. I'll juz be there when she needs me.

Then, yana and me went to watch 50 1st Dates. The ticketer sold me the wrong timing one. Asked for a 7.30pm show n she gave us 5.30pm show tickets. Idiota! Make a fool out of us. But its gd too coz we were given show house seats which is much much better. Its a funny show. Wanna watch it agn ah..

Friday Apr 23:
Went to work today. Before that, I went to Causeway Pt to pass SK her stuff and went shopping alone. Bought bread from Yakun Kaya Toast. Yummy!! That's my dinner.. Can't wait to go jogging and swimming tomolo morning wif yana and nang. I'm oso excited for the Malacca trip this Sunday. ;p

Thurs Apr 22:
Got stomachache sia. Went to accompany yana to sch. We ate at her school and went Causeway Point. Enjoyed myself. Then, went to work.

Wed Apr 21:
My exam day! Sianz..so difficult.

Tue Apr 20:
Went to school library to study MWSM wif Serene. Then, went to Suntec to eat KFC with Danial, Shuan, Vic, MK, and Tat. Danial treated us coz he's going NS the following day. Enjoyed myself.

Monday Apr 19:
Was at home the whole day. Studying a bit of MWSM.

Somethin dat nang aka stargazer did. Din noe my sista can do this kinda thing.

confuse

i wonder why am i still waiting
in the long queue just to be urs
ive tried so hard to leave the queue
bt its just too hard to bear
i kept thinking
maybe im nt the one for you
i feel like im lana in the smallville show
who loves clark kent too
bt eventually sum1 told her
'dont hold on to those who you love..maybe they arent for you'
i kept thinking abt it..
bt it was no use..
i still love you
as much as i used to
i hope we could be together
like how we are in my dreams
boy,im still waiting for you in my world of fantasies
im willing to wait for you till the day
you found someone new
bt even if we couldnt be together
im certain i cant forget abt you
for ur the first guy that i love so true

Today is a great day. Kak Linda's engagement day. Yan, me and yana went to Busu Kiah's house to make roti kirai. Had fun there. Fetch busu ain at interchange and go back home. Most of my relatives were oredi there. I was like "ARGH!! Haven change.. so rushing lei.." Then i get ready and be the photographer of the day. Hahaz.. Kak Linda is very pretty today. My sisters, yana and me were having a great time joking and laughing in the room. Really hope dat our sistership remains this way. Just sad dat Kak nita wasn't there. It's an incomplete picture. We took some photos by ourselves using timer. We were laughing and laughing while waiting for the snap. Some of the photos are pictures of us laughing. Cannot tahan.. Then, Busu ain gave me Hanuta chocoz... Yummy!! Sadz..he wanna bring me to Indonesia wif granny on first wk of June, but i dun think i can make it bcoz of the Sabah trip. That project wk oso the same, if i got no sch, he would have brought me to Europe. Felt really fortunate to have such a great uncle! Always help us when we r in need. Always think of us b4 himself.

Really enjoyed myself today. ;p

Like this song... ;p

Angels Brought Me Here- Guy Sebastian

It's been a long and winding journey
But im finally here tonight
Picking up the pieces and walking
Back into the light

Into the sunset of the glory
Where my heart and future lies
There's nothing like that feeling
When I look into your eyes

My dreams came true
When I found you,
I found You, my miracal
(chorus)
If u ,could see wat I see
That you're the answer to my prayers
when If you could feel the tenderness I feel
You would know, it would be clear
that the ANGELS BROUGHT ME HERE

Standing here before you
Feels like I've been born again
Every breath is your love
Every heart beat speaks your name

My dreams came true
Right here infront of You
My miracal
(chorus)
Brought me here to be with You
I'll be forever gratefull
Forever faithful
My dreams came true
When I found You
My miracal

(repeat 2x)
If u could see wat I see
You're the answer to my prayers
And if you could feel the tenderness I feel
You would know, it would be clear
That the ANGELS BROUGHT ME HERE

I was late for the DSA event yesterday. Supposed to meet Mark at 6am. I woke up when he called me at 6..haiz.. tu lar.. remember i woke up at 3am.. coz my throat was killing me? then i slept back ard 4 plus.. If i noe.. i dun sleep at all after dat. Reach suntec at 730 instead of 7am. Raymond treated us Mc Breakfast. Save duit aku. Hahaha...
Saw Mr President and Mrs Nathan face to face seh.. I felt so paiseh coz i told the rest not to feel kan chiong b4 they actually arrived. When he arrived, i'm d one kan chiong.. haha... gundu rite? Mr Fujita, Epson big boss, was standing in front of me. Raymond who was beside him shook Mr President's hand and then Mr Fujita. I was practically moving back step by step. I think Mr President muz be wondering why this girl is avoiding him... haha.. I think he wanna shake hand but bcoz i step back away from him, he say "Hello".. haha.. I oso got the chance to pass him the collage from last yr's event. The funny thing is Vic lar.. Mr President wanna shake his hand, instead he ushered them to the photo taking area. Selenges...
haha.. Then i met yana for her medical check-up at Kallang after the event. Went to Bugis. Supposed to watch movie, but 1st 50 dates not out yet.. So, we chat while drinking coffee at Starbucks. We shared 2 slices of cakes, 2 large fries, and 1 new Mc burger, the Chicken fillet. Tok cock all the time. Then, we went window-shopping. Took a bus home.

Today, tiring day seh. Do mobile photo taking for 2 rounds for the event. We finished most of the photos. Left ard 5 photos to be pasted. Great job done guyz!!! ;p
Raymond and family treated me, Shuan, MK, Vic, Tat, and Adek pizzas at pizza hut. Nice.. Celebrate our victory like dat. hahaz.. ;p

Okies....wat the hell am i doing here? Feeling like shit rite now. Nobody to complain to except this place. Only slept for 2 hrs and now i can't even sleep back. I really need my sleep.. but this throat is killing me. Its so SORE. sHITE! errgh.... I think i need to feed this throat with the hershey chocos i bought last 2 days. I noe i'm gonna make it more worse tho..
I guess now is d time to watch happy tree friends new episodes yar... feeling like a sicko rite now.. a real sicko watching a sicko show. It rhymes doesn't it? sicko...

I slept during tutorial yesterday. Was so sick that i can't even concentrate in class. Ms Serene oso join me to zzz. Can see dat she's tired. Sleep until forgot to copy tutorial notes. Diaoz... Then i went to the office for a meeting and a short training abt the mini collage. Went to have dinner wif Vic and Mk. After dat, went home. Watched tv until i slept.

Today, stayed at home. Then accompany mother to old woodlands interchange. While accompanying her, i was oso scouting for the 60 litre back pack. Went to eat lunch. Ate chicken fried rice and air tebu. Nice~~
Still feeling sick rite now. Coughing and flu.. hope i can get well soon..

Yesterday, work wif him again. Johan cycled there and we chatted for a while. Then, Yazid came and talk to Shazwan and me. Crapped alot. He good ah.. off for a mth to concentrate for his exams. He's so gross.. he told us dat one of the days he work sunrise and day. During day, he cannot control his bladder.. and nobody is tending to the store except him. So he took a big gulp cup and ran to the store rm. Store got tv to see whether customers are in d store. So, he quickly pee into the cup. Wah.. gross sia. We laughed like mad. And i was still sneezing since the afternoon. Have the feeling it will last for a few days. Ergh...help me..
Today, went to submit CMSK report in the morning. Ate salad at Jupiter Cafe wif serene. Now in fyp lab, juz met my supervisor and let him see our final project. Watch happytreefriends and oso chatted wif some of my frens. Now going for MWSM tutorial.. Haiz.. nvr do tutorial..

Ah..choo....!!!!!

Went 2 work juz now. Had a fun time working wif Shazwan. He's so funny.. Always happy and making fun of pple. lol.. Like sister, like brother. I was telling him that i can't do sit and reach. He told me that i have long legs.. I'm like "really?" I didn't even realise it.. coz Eve always teased me abt me nearer to the ground than her(meaning short lar) haha..
Then Shazwan and me were practically bitching abt some of our customers. Can't tolerate some of them. Think that they can do watever they want in our store. So wat if u look like a bitch.. i dun care.. wat else offending u.. Sometimes, i felt upset that the youths nowadays have changed alot. There are no longer the youths of our kind. Now, i can only see those sideroads 1... as if they do not care or even thought of their future. I mean.. i do not have the right to talk abt them coz i'm in a state of denial and confusion rite now.. especially abt my future. But at least there is a future appearing in front of me.. Gate by gate, open 1 by 1.. Juz taking a step at a time..

Woke up early in the morning to finish up my APEL Self Reflection. Did for ard 1 hr sia. Thus, late and didn't attend CPDC. Heard that cp was angry wif us as only 3 pple attended. Wat the toot! Can submit the portfolio in his pigeon hole mah. Wah kaoz.. somemore, indirectly scolding us as if we are immature in the email he sent.. I think he is immature.. not us. He wasn't being understanding at all. We still have CMSK to finish ok.. Useless geek. ergh....

Went for lecture today. Then, went for lunch wif Eve and Nad. After that, i finished off my MWSM in one of the secluded labs..NMM lab.. Hengz, not many pple. Else, can't do my work. Haiz.. feeling hungry agn... i'm gonna gain weight agn..

Wanna finish up my CMSK report by tonite and study for my exams le.. And i wanna go swimming!!! wanna learn swimming.. hehe. paiseh lah, dunno how to swim mah.. Who can teach me?

Sunday Apr 11: Now doing my sch work.. Will be working later at 7pm.. Haiz..

Sat Apr 10: Mother went to Johore wif both Mak Long and Mak Long Iis. Not forgetting Ferdah!! Played wif her for awhile before going for CSSP meeting. Was blur-blur.. so paiseh.. Then, went for DSA briefing with the other volunteers. B4 dat, me and Mark went earlier with the guys to take photos of the pple for the mini collage. Went back to office, and was surprised dat Joanne found my collage photo. ThanQ.. She told me on the phone dat she found something dat i want. Haha..
Then went to eat a quick dinner at Mc.. Was rushing because i'll be late for work.. Work alone from 7 to 9.30.. My colleague was late. Traffic jam at custom area.. i think..

Fri Apr 09: Good Friday. Went for YEP team building session at the ALP site in sch. Yana was late, therefore, we bought mc breakfast and ate in d cab. Surprisingly, we were the early ones. Serene woke up late..haha.. think she's very tired after all these projects. Had a great time during the team building session. Then, the 3 of us ate lunch wif Edmund, Joyce and Jason. First time ate at this muslim corner @ telepark. Then, yana came to my house. We watched tv while getting her a new blogskin. Then, off to work. Chatted wif Busu online at nite.. chatted until near 3am.. Wow.. but had a great time chatting coz it has been a long time since i met him. We are so busy wif each other's life. He's going Europe agn this Sunday. If only i have no sch these few days.. He would have brought me along.. hmm..

Thurs Apr 08: Went for MP Presentation. Was damn nervous.. experience the adrenaline rush..haha.. Was so pissed off wif the evaluator. Then, went for motivator's meeting in d evening. Ate KFC wif Yana near my house. We took photos and chatted along the way home. Crazy.. lol.. it has been quite a time since we chatted about our lives.

Wed Apr 07: It was Serene Neo's birthday. Went for CMSK in the morning. Serene, Eve and me ate at Jupiter's Cafe after class. We went to catch a movie "Taking Lives" in d evening with Weiling, her bf, and David as well.

Tuesday Apr 06: Forgot wat i did.. oh yeah.. i went to school do my mp presentation prep. Then, went to meet Mark in d office to briefed him on the aug event so that the guys can brainstorm abt it too. Then, went for DSA meeting wif Shuan and Vic. While waiting for them, i met Danial. Chatted for a while.

I'm very sad rite now. Can't believe that this is happening to me rite now. Can't believe dat pple will backstab me. I knew he is the kind of person but i didn't know that i'll be d victim. My other grpmate dont even noe dat he is talking abt him behind his back. 1 is a HYPOCRITE while d other is a GUNDU! Wat the ****! But i'm glad that i have told my tutor all abt it. Its up to her to believe. Now i noe who to trust and who not to trust. It really hurts me to the core that these kind of pple exists. I dunno how long i cried. Its not because of the project but because of the people involved. I'm juz gonna concentrate on my major project and cmsk rite now. Then i can think of the exams. Hope i can forget abt this matter coz i really can't afford at the moment. Else it will affect my other stuffs. I pray to u god. Let me be strong day by day. I'm only left with 2 weeks. Pls do me a favour..

To my frens who were there when i needed someone, thank you very much. Really appreciate it. I wouldn't noe wat i will do if you weren't there.

Sunday April 4: Stayed at home the whole day to do project. Was stressed coz i couldn't debug some errors.

Sat April 3: Went for mentoring. Wasn't in a gd mood dat time. Maybe bcoz my mentee didn't come. Then, went to work.

Friday April 2: Went to office to print some stuff and went to the Seasons in the sea photography talk. Then watch the movie "Twisted". A good show.. worth my $.. Now continue on my proj.. ciaoz.. ;p

Thurs April 1: Went to recce Suntec exhibition hall regarding the mini collage with Shuan, tat, and boss & family. Have to do preparation for the mini collage. Heard dat we'll be taking up a project in Aug. Went to work after dat.

Wed Mar 31: Didn't go sch. Had a terrible headache. Went to see doc. Doc gave me 3 days mc. Told me to go for a scan if the headache still continues next wk. Sianz.. u think i got $ meh. Then, i went for YEP meeting. Ate dinner wif Yana at Mc. Boss told me that i'll have lotsa things to do after my exams. Muz tell him my yep dates.. else sure clash..hehe

Tuesday Mar 30: Didn't go sch. Did my project at home. Then went to HW office for a CSSP meeting wif the motivators and JM. Had a great time chatting with SK, Elaine, JM and Jon abt blogger during our dinner. We then decided to come out wif our own blog. Check it out! Its called "i have a story".

Monday Mar 29: Can't wake up.. had headache agn. Therefore, i missed my lab agn! Haiz.. Only reach school ard 2pm to do my fyp and meet my supervisor. Then, went to work. Not enuff staff.

Sun Mar 28: Did my project the whole day.

Sat Mar 27: Went to sch wif yana for YEP meeting. Surprisingly, not many attended the meeting. Therefore, it was postponed on d next Wednesday. Went to the lab to continue my proj. Went for mentoring after that. I decided to go to Lay's birthday party and so went to Yana's house first and then to my house to change b4 going to the east agn. Had a great time there. Met my sec sch classmates. Yana slept over my house and i was so tired that i decided to sleep instead of doing my proj.

Friday Mar 26: I went to sch for MWSM lab. Did a bit on MWSM report. After dat, i went to work. Was late again. Haiz.. I was supposed to go to Lay's birthday party chalet wif yana and jo. Jo said that his dad will send us there as me and yana will only be able to go off after work which is ard 11pm. Then, he said dat his family wanna go Changi for supper. So, there will be no space in the car. I decided not to go then since i got no $ to take a cab. I told yana to go tumpang with them instead. In fact, i was feeling uneasy. To go or not to go.. coz i haven't finish my proj.